l I l Y: 2010

I Dream of A Perfect Date

I dream of one. A perfect date. Date doesn't have to be someone, but more precisely a perfect day with someone I love.

I always, want an unexpected day. A day where you are brought to places you never expect and places that you like with surprises like something you like to do and something you like.

I imagine it to be like:

Woke up in the morning, find a lovely note on my phone with a lovely reminder and invite. Followed by a call from a person I expect asking me to get off my bed and get ready, that person is on the way to pick me up for a jog at the beach side park. The breeze is great. Seagull everywhere. Not too hot, a lil bit windy. After jog. Follow with a lovely breakkie at the sidewalk of the beach. We sat on a bench with homemade sandwiches and freshly squeeze juice.

After a morning of exercise, take a rest at home doing nothing but just chill. Maybe accompany by a lovely pet. A dog perhaps. Playing with it here and there. After shower, being brought to a lovely garden place for lunch. Doesn't have to be expensive and fancy place, a place like my favourite Caffeinees is just nice.

Follow by an afternoon movie. A romantic comedy maybe. Laugh a bit and feel the sweetness within the ambiance of the movie. Relaxing movie. Touching in the end. I might tears a bit perhaps.

That person wipe my tears and lend me a shoulder to lean on.

After much laughter and tears, a drink before the night come. Perhaps a drink at a rooftop place to see the sunset. Just chill. Along with some talk. Heart-to-heart.

Comes to the end of a day, a homecook dinner will be great. Simple steaks with mashed potato and baked mushroom. Yum yum~ Along with some music and wine. A nice dinner doesn't always come with a price. Perhaps a lil surprise gift would make my day even better. I'm a lil bit greedy, I know I know. But who doesn't like gift?

That's what I call perfect date. A perfect day with a lil bit of surprise, along with some relaxing activity. Hmm... Anyway, I said it out already. Even if someone gave me a day like this it wouldn't be any surprising already. Haha. I'm just so ambivalent. Perhaps a day with everything unexpected but nice will be great. Hmm...

Date Me Please

Well well well, I'm gonna be back next week. My schedule are pretty much filled up, so I'm quite happy with my holiday gonna be very much occupied. Talking about plans, I haven plenty filled up my calender already. Can't wait and am extremely excited about it now. Wee~

10/12 : BBQ at home

13/12 - 15/12 : PD Trip at Avillion

15/12 - 17/12 : Penang Trip

18/12 : Pajamas Christmas Party with BBC

24/12 : Christmas Eve BBQ with OT

25/12 : Christmas Dinner

06/01 - 09/01 : Bali with Jia

15/01 : Ching and Shiaulee's Wedding

Well, these are what I have at the moment. Other time I'm still available. Perhaps I should put up a list of what I wanna do and you guys gonna fulfill them? What do you say?

1. Skytrex

2. Hiking

3. Yumcha

4. Club club

5. Movie

6. Dental Checkup

7. Non-stop eating

8. Cut hair

9. Meetups

10. Shopping

These are quite simple aren't they? So, call me! You have my number. I'll see you guys on 29/12.

With love.

Ly

Mummy or Baby

Facebook is a very good medium to discuss some topics. A friend discussed about this mummy or baby issue. Simple, will you rather sacrifice the baby or the mummy? I mean during a point when the doctor walk out from the operation theater and ask you this question. What would you choose?

As a mum, of cause she would be more that grateful if the husband would keep the baby. The baby is a mum's precious treasure ever. As a husband, this is the partner that you have known for years and you've decided to keep her and take care of her for the rest of her life. It is difficult for a husband. I wonder if one day *touch wood* my beloved husband would have to make this decision, what will he choose?

Of course, a wife would be delightful to hear the husband have chosen to keep her. But at the same time, as a mum, she would never on earth wanna lose the precious creature of hers. Women are difficult. No matter what decision that would be, there's no right or wrong. Just follow your instinct.

Pre-holiday

Well well well, my holiday haven't really started, but I already live in my HOLIDAY. LOL. This sounds so stupid. Since a week ago, I had been letting myself to rot at home, play outside, no work, shopping... everything. The final submission date is on coming Friday.

For the past whole week, I've been loitering much in city. Went shopping with my crazy bitches and spent a chunk. The following days, I'm drown in sweat with Bikram Yoga everyday. Aww~ It was a really addictive activity to do. 26 stretching poses and 2 breathing exercise. Refreshed my skin and body. Well it was just a trial session for 10 days. It doesn't really cost much. It's only $19. I'm happy with it. They were crazy and we went 4 days straight. LOL. But we also eat 4 days straight. Hahaha. After the one whole week of madness, they went back to KK. I'm left behind. Rot. Again.

Since Saturday, I'm down with ulcers, flu, fever, cough, headache and a bit of everything. That's kinda bad for a holiday. I hope it won't extend till I'm back in Bolehland. *Fingers and toes crossed*

What goes around, comes around

I can't tell how pissed off I am now. 5 in the morning and I'm writing this. Just nobody for me to talk to, nobody to tell. I just wanna scream my lungs out. I wish I have a delete button. So that I can delete all the unwanted memories. So that I don't have to be like this. I envy the old lady I met at the age care center. I wish I could be like her, not remembering those moment.

I'm different in handling this now. I used to throw tantrum, get upset, fight, and even cry. I'm not, now. Everything stays there. Even if I know, all I can do is just remain silence. I don't understand your logic, you never had.

"What goes around, comes around."

I'm Just Intelligent

Haven't talk much about my study lately. What's my current status? Still alive. Haha. That's the best word to describe my situation now. Well. Work load isn't that bad afterall. They were just crazy. CRAZEY as hell!!! Let me show you how crazy it was.

Well, I'm an intelligent, smart, and wise girl. And I am really good in time management. I finished all my assignments 2 weeks earlier! >.< Wow~ Give myself a clap *applause* But now I'm left at home, nothing to do. Like totally nothing to do AT ALL!

Anyway, I said its hectic. Let me tell you how hectic my timeline was.

29/10 - Collaboration News Story

Cultural Event Presentation

5/11 - Cultural Analysis

8/11 - Major Media Story

12/11 - Radio Documentary

19/11 - Remix Project

It doesn't seem to be very bad, but it's really really bad! Seriously. I only have 4 weeks to finish up all these thing. Well, you know, with my intelligent planning, everything is done! Wee~

I thought I wouldn't finish it so soon, so I didn't change my flight. Well, I regretted. How I wish I could. Some one please give me a chunk of money so that I can change my flight and get back sooner. But, that was just a dream.

Well, well. I should plan out something for the time being. Touring around perhaps? Since I haven't been really explored around Melbourne yet. But the only issue would be money. *kaching kaching* Where to find?

Anyway, this is one of my piece of work this semester. I know I know. Nothing fantastic, but I just thought of sharing.

Well, I have another Radio documentary to show. But I haven't figured out where to post it. Hmm... Well you can always ask me about it if you want to^^

Oh ya, and let me know if you need anything from Australia when I'm back to Bolehland. Don't worry, I charge. HAHAHAHAHA

"Oink oink~"

Call Me Queen B

Once again, I'm back into Gossip Girl addiction. Looking at their relationship, tricks, with cheat and lie. I feel myself in it. Honestly. I feel it.

The tension between Chuck and Blair has once against erupt. I love the fact that they love each other, but they just can't be together. They varnish. The hurt. They just can't bare to see each other living in happiness without themselves. They are selfish, just like me. I am too. But I tolerate, in a way. I'm not weak, but I believe that I would gain something in return.

Well. In the end, they still love each other. In everyway. Whether they want to destroy each other, or they hurt each other, or even humiliate each other. Everything came from the fact that they love each other. Very much.

"You know you love me. XOXO. Lily Clover. "

By the way, spotted some one had a fling. HAD, I say. Nobody know. I just realised it yesterday when that person told me. I was kinda shocked seeing a loving couple like them, they had their issue as well. I was impressed with the faith he had on her. I'm even touched. That's a good start. They had gone through a year being apart. Now, it's time for them to save something together for themselves. Memory perhaps.

"I wish."

=)

I ain't that scary am I? I've seen people can't wait to get me out of their world. Like seriously don't want me to even exist in their world. But friend, we're living in the same world. I still exist.

It all started with a misunderstanding which the technology world gave us. Or is it the relationship between us that created this misunderstood? Well, no one to blame but blame what had happened. I wasn't meant to be in your way. I was never in your way honestly. I swear to the world, I never intended to go into it. I was dedicated to someone else back then. Never intended on that person. So, why hate me? About that misunderstand issue, I didn't know. Seriously, I didn't know it wasn't your fault. It's the technology's fault. Sorry. I shouldn't had post those thing. I'm sorry.

After so long, things had change into this circumstances. Why are you still holding on it? I thought you let go already. Or is it what we're doing is hurting you, in anyway? I'm sorry again.

Perhaps, maybe we'll meet one day. Walking on the street, met each other unintentionally. Then, I wonder if you'll say hi. I thought we were friend. Seriously. I thought we were.

I might sounded like I'm trying to show off something, but I was not. Never intend to. Nothing to be proud of anyway.

Just be happy girl. Don't live in your past, live for the future.

Dream

I had a dream.

My dream used to be marrying a rich man and live happily ever after. Nowadays, much changes occurs. Changing of mentality towards what I want and what I desire in the future. I don't need to have a lot of money. I don't have to be super duper rich. I only wish for an average life, which I don't have to be worried about anything.

Then, I wish to have a business of my own. Not for money, but just leisure. I wish to have a cafe of my own. I can make coffee everyday. It doesn't have to an earning business, it just have to be a place where I can just do what ever I like. With no stress. Selling coffee I brew, sandwich I made, and cakes I bake. Besides that, the place would sell nice breakfast as well. With nice ambiance to have a quiet and nice breakfast. A place like Caffeinees perhaps. Hmm... I really wish to have a place like that. Very much.

Maybe not in the short future. Maybe in the time when I earned enough to bare my living. How I really wish I could have that one day.

Happy Birthday

I should be talking about my birthday right? That happened a week ago. It wasn't what I expect. But it is more than I expect. Really. I'm thankful.

I never know it would be like that. I had a night. Thanks to them. They made my day. They really did. They are the best. Glad that I have them here. They are something to me.

The day I step onto this land, the part of my life changed. It is different already. All over. Everything is different. I feel it myself. That way.

I become more and more independent. I started to not count on anyone. To not rely on anything mentally or physically. I'm on myself. Alone.

"Happy Birthday to Myself"

Fool

I feel so dumb now. Woke up this morning and found myself being a fool. I've been a fool all this while. Blindfolding myself. Keep myself away from everything. In a way, it's pushing me towards looking at what is the reality. I hope what I see is and what I feel is not real.

I've been taken for granted all this while. I didn't do anything. My effort is worthless. All that I've done are all bull shit. I know I shouldn't be saying this early in the morning but I can't help it but felt that way. It sucks. It really sucks.

Somebody just come and ask me if I'm alright, and I think I'll cry my lungs out. Seriously. I'd rather stay out of everything by now. I wonder what is it gonna be when I'm back. It sucks! Totally. Very much. Front and back. Inside out. Feel like vomiting. Grr...

The Rule of Love

What do you hope for in a relationship? In every relationship, there would be expectation. A relationship without expectation, it's nothing. Cause you don't even want it to be better or a change. Expectation is never too high, it is whether you tried your best to achieve it or not. Whether you succeed, it doesn't matter. Effort is forever worth more that everything, even if it turns out to be a disappointment. But if the effort is there, you will just keep trying and trying. Just to make everything better. Maybe this idea was just totally one sided.

What I hope for in my relationship. I only hope for three simple and basic thing. I shall call this expectation too. I wonder if it's too high. This is for you to tell me.

Love

This is the most basic thing in every relationship. Even in the relationship with parents and friend. There should always be love. If you don't love the person, there isn't any relationship at all. Which is why, I only hope for a heart that love me completely. Well don't have to be some psycho freak who love me till they feel like killing me. No no~ Don't come to me.

Care

Something that everyone need. Maybe a lil bit extra from the one you love. Just a lil bit more. That person doesn't really have to be virtually with me, but just concern and care is more than what I ask for. This is just my imagination: When I'm down and depress (You are down and depress all the time! >.<), that person would just call and tell me, "Don't worry, everything will be fine. I'll be here for you. Anytime." Or maybe that person would just ask me if I'm alright when I'm not acting normal. Well, I know this kinda care I can just get it from my family or friends. But don't you think that the care from the person you love or the person who loves you should be slightly different? Care is always about feeling. Just care about how I feel or perhaps what I would feel when that person do this or do that. I've been told to care about people's feeling. How about mine? Deserved to be taken for granted? Well, I'm just saying. I needcare too.

Honesty

Finally. A healthy relationship, should be build with its basic foundation, which is honesty. Without honesty, there wouldn't even be trust and faith. Without these things, a relationship wouldn't last or it wouldn't even exist. The most trust-able person should be your family. Because they wouldn't betray you. Aren't having a relationship equals to looking for another family member in your life? If that person is not even trustworthy, then why have the relationship?

I wonder if I'm asking too much. Correct me if I'm wrong.

By the way, do I really look like a materialistic girl who only look at branded bags, clothes, nice car, penthouse? Am I? Am I? Huh? Huh? Huh?

My Wish

Sorry, but I just can't face this because this is too emotional that me myself can't bare to see myself like this. I'm helpless. In every way. As always.

Friday is approaching. Just trying to keep myself cheer up. So that it won't be a pathetic birthday this year. I never had good birthday. Ever. Even last year, or year before. On that day, it never turn out right.

This year, I only hope for a peaceful and calm birthday. I don't need any surprise. What I want is only a light smile when my friend say 'Happy Birthday Lily.' I'll be more than happy. More than ever.

This hasn't been a great year. But it's not that bad after all. At least I met some one that will really have a place in my heart forever. No matter what happen in the near future or later.

I try to not put in any expectation. But eventually I'm putting expectation and hope into it. Pathetic.

Well, my only wish. Be happy and pass all my subject. Wee~

Blindfold

Do you remember, there is this one game. Where you get blindfolded and then you'll have to count on your other senses to find the people that you are finding for. Would you take off the cloths? Would you rather break the rule just to let yourself see clearly? Would you? Or you would rather being blindfolded so that you can't see what's out there. Good or bad. Happy or sad.

When there's someone came by and tries to lead you, should you trust that person? Just follow? What if that person is for no good? What if the person leads you to the wrong pathway? What if the person did it on purpose? What if someone take away the fold for you? He/she did it to show you the truth. Show you how cruel the world is, show you how ugly the truth is.

It might break you, or even tear you apart.

"I rather to be blindfolded, now"

I Love The Way You Lie

Some people just can't do the job better. Ass is not that big, cover better please. Especially when it's so easy to find out. Call me smart or my network is just too strong. I told you I'll find out when someone lied.

Lying is an art. How you lie, what you lie, to whom you lie and why you lie. These are all the settings before you lie. But you only have 1 second to set all these up. Once you lie, you should never go back. Lying is based on the trust from people. People trust you and you betray their trust. Trust is earned. You don't get it by doing nothing. When you lose it, that's it. It takes a very long time to accumulate it again. Lose everything in the world. But please don't lose the trust.

People always say white lies are necessary. But to me, it's just once. Once and for all. If ever I find out, that's it. Even though the intention was good. But when you lie, you'll just keep going on and on and on. It's like a drug, take it for once and you'll crave for it.

"Just be patience"

Open to be Vacant

Did I tell you about my job. I mean the Barista job in city. I used to like my job when we were still using the old espresso machine. Until my boss change it, sold the toaster, and my two colleague quit the job, I started to hate my job. Thou he raised my pay. But the new machine just sucks and everything was bad, especially he even sell off the shop. Yea, I have a new boss, a lady boss. She looks arrogant in anyway, the way she talk just irritating as if she is great. That's not the whole point. She even cut my working hour. I used to work almost 20 hours or at least 14 hours a week. Now I'm down to about 12 hours or 18 max a week. That's kinda bad. Especially when I'm taking up my own living expenses here. I don't really feel myself in this job anymore. Until that day, Cassey called me and said her company is hiring. Well, I kinda envy her high pay job before that. I went to the interview today. Not really an interview after all. He asked me to see him tomorrow at Dandenong, and passed me a stack of paper, document I mean. Yes! It's DANDENONG!!! Hell it's like freaking far!!! >.< but well, I'll still go tomorrow and see how is it going then I'll decide if I'm gonna quit the Barista job. Wish me luck peeps. Cheers~

"Can I have a Synesso at home?"

I Have Friends. They Don't.

I have a friend, L. He just got back with his ex.

I have a friend, H. She is hell of a bitch.

I have a friend, K. He is just so pathetic.

L

He broke up with the current long time ago because he cheated on her. He deserve it anyway. He's been telling me how remorse he is. He regretted for doing it. He just can't help. I think he should never be forgiven. But, I just can't bare seeing my friend in grief. I gave him a hand, and they got back together as a couple a month ago.

H

I never like her. It was fine when I first met her. But in a way, I feel weird with the way she act in front of me and behind me in front of my friends, especially guys. Her eyes. I don't know, but it seems like a lot of people hate her. Not just me. She's not a friend.

K

He is a very good friend of mine. Love talking to him.

L & H

They were friend too. When he told me about the remorse, he told her too. I've heard about it. But he said he hated her and never talk. That's what he told me. But you betrayed and lied to me.

K & H

He likes her. But she don't. Pathetic. She told him about L's remorse.

Me & L & H & K

L felt grateful to me laying a helpful hand. K thought H was that angel. L lied to me about him and H just to get me to help. How convenient. I never blame K. It's not his fault. I regretted helping L. I wonder if he even told H about his hatred to me.

Now I see.

"7,516,800 vs 24,019,200"
=P

She

I'm not complaining since I didn't correct him at the first place that he thought she's the one who did it. She looks like an angel to both of them, or perhaps all of them. I'm not skeptical or bias to her, though I don't really like her at all.

Yes, she did involve in that incident. But you just didn't see how much I helped. Only if he is hiding that he actually spoke to her a lot. While he told me he hated her. Perhaps then its just me myself who thought that way that I did helped him and they are now at their best. Did I helped or did she? I don't know.

Anyway, the fact that she took the pride. She is an angel. She did all the good thing. She helped a lot of people. She is a good listener. She can give good advise. I'm nothing compare to her right?

"曖昧是最美的"

Hope

This is the first day of October. I've been back here for almost 2 months. Another 1.5 months and I'll be back again. I don't like to talk about going back anymore. It's boring already. I've been ranting about it foe so many times already.

It's October again. A month that I hope it would be filled with joy and happiness with no sorrow and pain.

Last month, things happen. Sad things happen. Life is full with uncertainty and worries.

Well, since this is a month I've been longing (not really thou), I shall hope for something. I don't need any expensive thing. But what I want is just happiness. It's just that simple.

Wee Chye Kee

Ever since I have memory about my childhood, what I remember about my grandfather is he will give me pocket money. Besides that, my favorite time is when my grandfather go for morning walk, he would bring me to the playground.

Now, he had gone to another place and I believe that he would be better there. The place where my grandmother went 2 years ago. The land without pain and sorrow. He left us at 2pm this afternoon.

Thank you for being such a caring and beloved grandparent to us all. You'll be in our heart.

I love you, my grandfather. Wee Chye Kee.

Learn

This is the worst day of my life. Bad things happened. Nothing is good. Or maybe one, that I'm still living. The pressure is forcing me. Hard. It's like suffocating. Or it's like I might die any minute. I realize, when I wanna talk to someone, I got nobody to turn to. I'm alone. I tried. But it's like I'm giving people pressure. I shouldn't. People don't have to listen to my crap. Anyway, nobody really wanna listen and willing to listen. Even the one I care and love. I know you're reading this. Probably forcing yourself to think that I'm not writing about you. Well, if you're happy this way. I'll just bare with it. Someone told me, the only thing I can do is bare with it. Even if I mind, I jealous, I mad, I sad, I emo, no matter what I do it's all the same. Yea I'm pessimistic. Sorry, I can't help.

Besides, my lappie just have to let me down at this time, even the clothe I like has problem. Everything just have to come together. Well, it's good in a way. So that I won't have to be furious separate into few days. Come in one go is great. Someday, I'll learn to not worry, to not care, to not feel. That's when I'm there with popo.

After so many years, I'm sick of these.

I shall make a move.

Dear Mr Pathetic

Dear Mr Pathetic,

How are you? Well, this question is kinda stupid to ask. I thought you are well all the while. Should I or not talk to you in this way? Sarcastic huh? Did I become a threat to you and push you into the corner? You don't even know exactly for what reason I hate you and won't tolerate. It's not what you did a year ago, but the time when you don't see me as a FRIEND. That's not the way to treat a friend. Am I in self acquisition? Because I don't even know if you're even talking about me. What happened last December, I wouldn't forget. I've never been disregard by anyone before. I thought we were friend, best friend. But I can't understand how could you do that to me. I thought of giving you a chance, but you just missed it. I think I'll talk to you one day when I feel like it again. Wonder if you would read this. How do you feel. That's what I think. This letter.

Love,

Ly

W • O • R • K

I spoke to a friend, he has lose his motivation and passion in his current job. Well talking about work, human live to work? Or do they work to live? It's a chicken and egg question anyway.

I love to work, especially with fun and passionate people. This sounds naive. In the corporate world, it's all about status, politic and power. I've gone through that. But nothing affect me because I'm not really gonna take that job as my career. That was just a short period of time. I'm talking about working in Kopitiam Asia Pacific Sdn Bhd, if you so happen to know what company is that. Of course, there were much politics happening in there. I'm blessed that I'm not one of the people who sacrifice because of politic. I love my colleagues. They were nice and helpful to me. I'm a new girl, know nuts about corporate environment. They brought me through. That could be one of the job I love so far.

I've been working pretty much since I was 15. Sis wanted me to get myself a partime job during my school holiday. I'm kinda lucky. Every job I get was decent and I feel grateful to all my bosses. So many kinda job, retail, promoter, teacher, sampling, sales, tester, marketing, etc etc. I remember each and every job. They were all great. I always love my bosses. Because they are great to me.

More and more pics, but I don't know where those picture went. LOL. As time goes by, sometimes I miss the time. With some people.

In a working environment, you see faces. Friendly face, polite face, fake face, dick face, stupid face, dumb face, sneaky face, angry face, fucked up face and etc etc. This is life. Life is all about work and work and work. Wonder if you work to live, or you live to work?

In A Month Time

One month to go. Not that far thou. It's approaching. But, this time I don't feel a thing. Possibly cause I know it won't be anything.

I used to look forward to this very day every year since I left high school. But not anymore. I don't know why. It's not special anymore. I don't want this day to come. It won't be anything.

Years ago, when I was still in high school, it doesn't mean anything to me either. Because I don't have much friend back then. Not being appreciate. I was a nasty, arrogant, difficult, unfriendly, unsociable and unlikeable person. Hmm... Those are the best words to describe me I guess. That's why I never look forward to it. Until I met them, friends. The day started to mean something to me. I had some memorable one. They were really great. Really. I wish I can have it again. But I can't turn back time, nor make myself there.

What do I want? What's my wish? What do I hope for? Perhaps, something simple. Just a wonderful year ahead. That's enough. I know, I know, I'm greedy in a way. But that's really what I want. I don't mind if you wanna grant me what's on my wishlist. I'll be more than happy to receive those.

Perception

People has perception. People think what they think it is. You think that the animal is a chicken, in fact it is actually a duck. But you already have the perception that it is a duck, therefore no matter what people say, to you it will forever be a duck. Another type is people think that the way you react is a norm. That's the way you are, that's the way you behave and you react to thing.

I remember when I was still a kid, one day when my mum ask me if I threw the rubbish on the floor. I said no, in a very pleasant manner. My mum ended up screwed me. I didn't do that and tried to explain. And my mum said,"If it wasn't you, you scream your lungs out denying about what you didn't do. This is how you will react." I was so sad, just because my mum think that I would react that way and she made her decision on the result of that incident. I'm innocent.

Until now, I grow up. People has their perception on how I react to stuff. I'm narrow-minded. I tried to be someone. But I'm just being seen as no one.I might not be what I claim to be. But I'm certainly trying very hard to be one. Seeing me that way, does it mean that you actually know me well enough.

Nobody can understand someone perfectly. Not even my parents: They don't know me, don't even know about my thoughts. Am I pathetic?

Sicky Spring

Again, I think I should blog now. I read the drama all over again. It's still as exciting as it was. It's always a bell ringer to me, reminding me not to be overwhelm and over into it. I always remind myself.

I was sick for the past 3 weeks. Severely. Well, probably this is a good time to lose weight. Or perhaps not, because my two lovely and adorable housemate has been forcing me to eat so much. Did I gain weight instead? HAHA. Besides sickness, assignments and workload worries me. Assignments are over for the meantime, but I think I shall start doing the rest before I have to rush all together in one go again. That's hectic and stressful.

Sometimes, I think I really have to learn how to be alone. Like really alone. No friend, no family, no boyfriend, no nothing. I shouldn't feel a thing, since I've been like this since I came here.

I did something. Something that I felt guilt in me. Something I'd never did in my life. Something someone may feel disappointed about me. But, it is also something that some people would be excited about it. I'm not regret. I did not. Because I know it would be nice, and that's what I want. I just hope it would be carried out well. I hope, I really hope.

It's Spring already. I hope everything will be nice. Flowers, sun shine, carnival, beach. That's what I see coming on the way. Wee~

Since the objectives of going back to Bolehland has been done 80% on the previous trip, I think I shall start another list. Including something that somebody promised me. Hehe. Watch me.

"We'll be a dream"

Rehab

Hmm... Probably I shall blog today, since I'm so free and lonely. LOL.

Sickness has been sticking on me lately, mental sickness, physical sickness, everything. Sometimes I think I have depression. But I just haven't reach the extend that I would kill myself. haha. Well, like what's written on my profile, I'm emotionally unstable at times. Which means, I might cry now, and laugh afterward. I'm kinda crazy ain't I? Had been sick for weeks, maybe months. When can I go back to the me? I wanna be myself again.

Anyway, people around me just can't stop driving me crazy. Pressure is everywhere. This is a process I guess. For a better future? Or perhaps a better me in the future, that I learn to handle this. Probably one day, you won't see any expression on my face because I don't feel a thing.

Human are born to be alone, born to be lonely. Nobody can escape this. You came to this world as one, you leave this world as one too. I think I should go to rehab, my addiction needs a treatment, Hope it would be cure soon. This addiction is killing me. Mentally dependence is not good. I shall be like Debbie one day. =)

Sucks

I hate my life!!! Sucks!!!

A Letter to R

Dear R,

I know you're stress. But please chill while reading this.

Well, I haven't wrote to you for a long long time. How have you been? Missing me much? I guess so. Heard about you. Please don't freak out when bad happens. They happen for a reason, somebody always tell me this. I believe in it too. He hasn't treat you right probably because he don't know how to handle you. You are not like the others, you're special and precious. Trust me. At least you are to me. You deserve to get what is good for you. He is good, undeniable. But in a way, he is also abusing you darling. Mentally. How long could you stand being torture like this? I'm not being demotivate here, I'm saying this for your own good. He may be the best thing in this world, but at the same time, he might be the worst thing you've ever had in this world. Give and take. Just be yourself. Don't diverse to some psycho, obsessive and irrational person, because I know you are not. You are as perfect as and angel.

Crying over broken promises is no use. They can't be mend. He won't even remember or even care about it. So just don't put up much expectation. Go as flow. You'll find interesting and wonderful things happening. From him perhaps? =) Stay as who you are. Live on!

I'll talk to you sometime alright?

Love,
Ly

100

100 days to go.

That's quite fascinating to thought about. Planning had been going lately. Plans about what I'm gonna do after I graduate; plans about my holiday; plans about my future; plans for my finance. Everything has to really plan it out.

Well, actually I just got back from my holiday. Shouldn't be homesick so soon. But thinking about the assignment coming like giant waves, now I miss holiday already.

Since I'm here already, nothing much can be done even thou I miss my holiday. So, I think I shall plan out for my coming spring holiday. Wee~ So much to plan about. I shall also plan for my holiday when I'm back to Bolehland. Well, I do have much to do. Hope everyone is still there for me.

Life isn't easy over here. To sustain for my finance, I really have to come out with a brilliant plan. Cut my diet is the first thing I'm gonna do. Well it's not solely to save, but also to slim down. I've freaking gained 3kg in Malaysia. >.< That's really bad. Besides that, I will really have to WORK hard to earn that money. But assignments came along, since this is a semester with only assignments and project. No exams at all. Well, it kills, in a way. When it all pile up. But, luckily, looking at the schedule I sorted out, didn't really pile up but it comes like waves. Every week is a due date. So, I will really have to work hard on this too.

In order to work hard on both the thing, a healthy body is needed. But unfortunately, flu and tonsil virus has got to me. Down. Boo~ Sicked for the past two days. Sorry for keeping you guys worried about me. I'm well, pretty much I guess. Will recover completely soon.

Now, what I really need is some motivation to get my work started. Had been procrastinating much. Move girl! Move!

"I can't wait to be back."

Self-Denial

Too much things running in my mind. I need a peace of mind. I wanna get rid of everything and just focus on myself. But, I can't.

I've been doing some really stupid things lately. Really stupid. I don't know why I did that. Don't even know how did I came out with the idea of doing it. I'm changing. I can see myself changing. To somebody I don't know. Horrible, and scary. Really.

I don't know if it's me myself think too much, or is it really happening. She did it right after that incident. This is like somebody told her to. Have you been talking to her? Much? Well. Perhaps the answer is obvious enough. How can you be such scary person that I don't even know who you are anymore. I thought I know you. I thought you're just like what I thought you are. But well the fact is that, I'm too naive to think that you're somebody like what I thought previously. This is something I never thought it would happen after all these years. I'm in self-denial.

Wrap

You know that day, someone said I'm an easy type of girl. Well, it's not a compliment apparently. He meant I'm a very easy type of girl, which means I'm easy to get. He even said something like, if he is the one going after me, he will get me for sure. It's like no matter who came after me, they'll get me too. Well, I wanna say:"Try me!"

Besides that, people think that I stalk a lot. On everyone. Please come on. I'm not a stalker ok? I don't have the time to bother about people's business. People also relates me to words like mean, sarcastic and probably scary. Maybe I am. Or am I? Well, nobody's an angel. Come on, face the fact. Even if a beautiful, kind hearted, soft spoken and gentle lady would go home and hit the bunny. Well, I never said I'm an angel. So, suit yourself thinking that I'm a mean, sarcastic and scary person. I'm not referring to anyone. So, please don't get offended.

I mean no harm to anyone. Please don't judge me!

Sometimes, I got so demotivated when I didn't write something that people expect from my post. Or should I stop blogging? Hmm... What do you say?

Flew to MY Holiday

Holiday is over and here comes the new semester. I just got back from KL on Sunday night, or is it Monday night? Confused.

Coming back of course there are much unbearable because I made my holiday happening, fun and meaningful in Malaysia. Reminiscing the moments in Malaysia is like a dream. Now I'm awake, everything is back to default. Back to uni, back to work, back to real life. I had fun going out with friends, but I can't seem to meet each and everyone, that's the saddest part. I'm so so so sorry people.

Well, it seems like I have fulfill almost 80% of my objectives going back to Bolehland for holiday.

I spent time with my parents at Cameron. Never been to any place with them for a long long time. Thou, it is not as fun as spending time with friends. But, it is precious. Oh, and I get to spend time taking care of my lil princess. Yea, the one Varren babysit that day. Now he love Xuan more than me. = 3= Should I be jealous? LOL.

Besides spending time with family, I spend time with friend eating. Yes! Eating any place, any time with them. And I gained weight. Yes! I'm like 5Xkg now! It's like Oh My Fucking God! >.< I'm so gonna start dieting. Eat healthy in Melbourne!!! I'll lose weight within this 3 months! I promise. I doubt actually.

Besides eating, I thought I wanna watch a lot of movies in Malaysia because it's really cheap! Dead cheap! But ended up I didn't watch much because no company. I watched like 3 movies only. But they were great. I thought I wanted to watch so so much. But I did not. Hmm... Nobody go with me. Pity. Well, I watched . It was awesome. I wonder if I would wanna stuck in there with my loved one. Would you?^^

Coming back to Melbourne is just like waking up from a long sleep. With a wonderful dream. A lovely one. But I just can't get enough of it.

Pictures? Check out over here. =)

Maybe just this one. Thanks to my dailou Lucas and my sis. They send me off. Wee~ <3

Big Daddy

It was indeed a lovely week. That's what I can say. LOL

Well, last Friday was the only day I would have to stay home for one whole day (sad to say that.). What am I up to? Babysitting. Yes! babysit my lovely lil niece- Baby Xuan. I thought it would be easy and handy. I thought...

Baby came at around 12.30pm after her vaccination. Of course my lil princess was as lovely as usual. Get her milk as usual and thought she would go to sleep after that like all the other babies. By the way, this is like the first time I take care of her on my own. She finished her milk, but! She didn't want to go to sleep at all! Fine, well I can play with her. Until Varren came with my lunch. Baby still up and playing. Can barely eat my lunch. After lunch, baby is still so energetic and luckily Varren is here to take care of her. He is a pro! OMG~ But understandable since he has so many nieces and nephews. He can really cope with babies. *applause*

Glad he is here with me. Otherwise I wouldn't know what I would do to baby. LOL. Don't worry, nothing to do with abusing. Oh, here comes the Big Daddy.

Awww~ <3 They are so adorable.

I'm Back

I should be typing this long long long long time ago but I kept procrastinating. Because my life is too busy now. I even have plan tomorrow early morning. Like 7am? LOL. What to do that early? Jogging of course. I gained weight, like seriously grown fat! I dare not to stand up on the weighing scale because I know, I might hate myself after that. So, I'll just bare with it until I'm back in Melbourne. I'm a self denial. I don't care.

Before I start anything, I shall start with shouting:

"I'M BACK PEEPS! Woo~"

Well, how had my holiday been so far? Despite the part in Melbourne, it's the part in Kuala Lumpur I should mention now. It's a surprise, it's not one either cause surprise failed in a way, but it succeed in a way too. What am I talking about? Stupid. Nevermind. I should say I surprised people I'm suppose to surprise, but people also did surprise me by knowing my surprise. Gosh! I'm really crapping here >.<

Anyway, I came back since last Saturday. It's been a week till now since I came back. I've been really busy that I have to reject some of the date. I'm not being action, arrogant, show off or what ever you name it here. But really I can't meet up with each and everyone, though I really really really want to. That's kinda sad. But I tried my best. But still there'll be complaints here and there. From my friend, family, bff, buddy, who ever ever. What I can say here is only SORRY.

Well, I came back and had a party at VV's house right after I land. But it's not really a party, it's just a potluck dinner with all of them. No contribution from me. LOL. Well day after I went to dodgeball. I can really call myself the UCSIDD Lucky Charm.I went and they won. Wee~ I really really proud of them. They got champion in MAPCU among all the uni.

Well, day after and after and after, I'm just busy running here and there, doing this and that. Going to my aunt's house to drop off the pressie, getting stuff for family, pay respect to my late grandma and ancestor and etc. Don't really have much time to spend with all my friends. I know some of you might be furious or even think that I just neglected you guys. But I swear! Deep down in me, I've really wanted to meet you, you, you, you, you, you, you, and YOU, if possible. I'll try my best k?

Last Saturday was UCSI University 2010 graduate convocation. I went, this is really something I would never wanna miss.All my good friends and buddies are graduated. I'm so proud of them and glad to see their success. I'm glad that I could make it to the convocation. One of them also happen to be my bff, Galy. So proud of him. On the next day, I followed him and the family for the graduation and family photoshooting session. Feels quite weird, but I'm glad and honored that the parents invited me. After that, the parents even gave me a treat, well, it's actually an early birthday celebration for Galy. His birthday falls on 8th of August. Don't know whether is it because of me, they changed the date. But, no matter what, I felt so honored. Thank you aunty and uncle. And all the best and may all your wish come true. My BFF- Galy Ng!

What is the 'must-do' thingy when I'm back in KL? Nonetheless MAKAN!!! Lets see how's my makan list going.

1. ~~Longan Taufu~~

2. ~~Quan's~~

3. ~~Herbal Chicken Rice~~

4. ~~Bak Kut Teh~~

5. Caffeinees

6. Klang/ K.Selangor Seafood

7. Saga Hill Roti Tisu

8. Sakae Sushi

9. ~~Riceball with Ginger soup~~

10. Hoi Kee Fish Head

11. Shabu-shabu at Kuchai

12. ~~Puchong Pan Mee/ Mei Yee Pan Mee~~

13. ~~Snow Flake~~

14. Petaling St Ikan Bakar

15. Petaling St Longan Lo Hon Kor

16. ~~Assam Laksa~~

17. ~~Dim Sum~~

18. Nice dinner at Cafe Cafe

It seems like, I have pretty much to catch up. Let's get it started babeh. ROFL~

(PS: For more pictures, stay tune to my facebook update. Wee~)

"I'm different."

Nervous

I don't know why but I feel unreasonably nervous. This is not the first time but I really kinda nervous. It's because the people I'm gonna meet, the place I'm gonna go or the things I'm gonna do? The last time I felt this way was the night before my parents brought me to Sunway Lagoon.

Happy

I'm getting ready for tomorrow.

Probably some of you would know what's going on. Hehe.

I'm so excited now. Wee~ So happy.

I Will Be...

I'm having a very very long holiday. Like almost 2 months. Hmm... Probably I shall travel around AUS and explore a bit. But everything needs 'kaching kaching'. Am, I'm really lack of 'kaching kaching'. ROFL~ Seriously. Went shopping the entire week. I mean last week and now I'm broke. Besides that, I spent a lot on food. OMG! Really ate a lot lately. I wonder if I would spend this much if I'm in KL now. Probably I wouldn't, I guess. I'll still spend of course. I had been wondering, what would I do if I'm in KL now?

1. Attend UCSI graduation ceremony

2. Sing K

3. Eat around (Herbal Chicken Rice, Bak Kut Teh, Caffeinees, Longan Taufu... the list goes on and on.)

4. Go trip (Melacca, Penang, Ipoh, Kuantan...)

5. Hiking (Chilling Fall, Saga Hill, Gunung Nuang...)

6. Choose bridal gown and shooting with Ching

7. Party with the gang

8. Countless dinner

9. Yum cha

10. Clubbing

11. Shopping

12. Meeting up with people (including you, you, you and YOU)

13. Watch movie

14. Play dodgeball + Training with them

15. Renew my passport

16. Cut my hair

17. Dating
18. Shooting

Hmm... what else?! It's really a lot right? Well. That's just what I thought I wanna do. Hmm... All my imagination.

Probably I shall list down what I really crave to eat. One-by-one.

1. Longan Taufu
2. Quan's
3. Herbal Chicken Rice
4. Bak Kut Teh
5. Caffeinees
6. Klang/ K.Selangor Seafood
7. Saga Hill Roti Tisu
8. Sakae Sushi
9. Riceball with Ginger soup
10. Hoi Kee Fish Head
11. Shabu-shabu at Kuchai
12. Puchong Pan Mee/ Mei Yee Pan Mee
13. Snow Flake
14. Petaling St Ikan Bakar
15. Petaling St Longan Lo Hon Kor
16. Assam Laksa
17. Dim Sum
18. Nice dinner at Cafe Cafe

Wow... I think I'll grow fat in Malaysia instead of growing fat in Melbourne if I'm gonna eat those in KL. LOL

"Things will be better soon. I promise. "

Listen • Watch • Feel

Well well well~ Rise and shine. I'm now really having my holiday. Sleep at 3am, wake up at 12pm, brunch, laundry, room cleaning, facebook, movie, outing, work out, bla bla bla. Oh, not forgetting what I've been doing so far since my holiday started, SHOPPING~! I bought so many things and now I'm broke. But I'm happy to be broke. Rofl~ I bought so so many things for him and her and him and them and it and of course for myself. Like what my sister said, it's good to be broke when you shop till like that. Lol. Anyway, I got myself things that I like so I'm satisfied.

By the way, had been hearing too much story lately. About the story on my facebook the other day ( I wrote: he love you and you love him, but she love him and he love her. Oh, and they love you too) well, the story is kinda long, but I'll just shorten it.

It's between 2 girls and 4 guys. The End.

LOL. Is this short enough? Well, about love. I don't have much experience I guess. But I definitely have a lot of stories and own philosophy to tell. (here comes her perasan-ness again) looking at this complicated and messy relationship, basically there's nothing much to say but, I hope you and him will last forever. You're great and everything a man could dream of (maybe not all), there's aren't any reason for him to leave even if she had a crush on him. So just be confident and you'll be there, with him. Forever.

A question had been bothering me much lately. Am I a materialistic, realistic and mean girl? Well, I bet some of you would say yes. Especially you! I know you're reading this. Don't have to be shy, just admit it and continue reading.

Materialistic? Hmm... I love clothes, bags, shoes, branded, nice food, good life. Who doesn't?! But, I never wish to get it from anyone (I don't mind if you're willing to give me what I want ^^), I can do it myself. Especially, when I think I'm capable to get what I want on my own. So am I still a materialistic person? Yes, I think.

Realistic. Hmm... I like to dream, but I hate dreaming to. Ambivalent. Well, I have my vision, my plan and what I wanna be, and what I'm capable to be. So I'll stick with it and work very hard on it. So, uncertainty will always keep my confident off. That's why I hate uncertainty. I want everything to be assured. But the world us just not that easy and simple.

Mean. Well, I admit! I am mean. But only to certain people. Just don't make me hate you from the very bottom of my heart. Especially to those who don't really know me and start judging. I'm more than what you think I am. Please, you just haven't met someone like me and you think they are the best already. Your world is too swallow. Boo~

I Still Love You II

Alright, continue from what I left off that day. I said, perhaps it's love that kept the relationship goes on. Or is it something else? Being a couple like the couple in the series, it is really not easy. Trust is the first thing should be gained in a relationship. Without trust, nothing can be done. Everything is over. Trust is earned. A girl needs security, a guy needs security too. So, what are the criteria consisted to feel secure? In a relationship, it's between 2 person. Just 2. No one else should be in it, including family (mother... Lol) and even friends (xbf, xgf, xcrush, xxx, bff, who ever). No no! When there's more than 3 person, it should happen when you're married with kids. Sometimes, trust should be gained with respect and understanding between each other.

Being together, the couple should have something in common, not only interest, friend or career. But I think the best thing to have together is a common goal. Something 'we' would want to achieve. I told my friend this. What is important in a relationship is what they want now and future. The goal can be as simple as being together when the time comes. Girl always tell the guy, you don't understand me, you don't know what I want. Of course a guy won't understand this, because guy never think! Even if the do think, it's would be the simplest thought on earth. No offense. What a girl want is participation and involvement. They wanna be in your plan, they wanna be in what you wanna do, they wanna be in what you wanna achieve. That's why they ought to know everything about you. But guy always think they wanna achieve something by themselves and they want you to be proud of them, proud of their achievement. Which is why, girl will never understand and so do guy. Well, a relationship is not something easy. I think I shall just look around, just look. LOL.

By the way. Ever since my holiday started, I've been working almost everyday from the day I came back from GOR. It's freaking 9 days straight. I'm so proud of myself. LOL. I know I know, probably you're thinking much 'kaching kaching' coming in. Yes! But there are also a lot of them going out because I've been shopping much. ROFL. But I'm happy what I bought thou. Not branded, but a lot of stuff. Well, not that much thou. Because some of them are for my lovely family and friends. Wee~

Oh ya! The most important thing to mention about today is, my results are out! I got 1 pass, 2 credit and 1 distinction! Wee~ Aren't you proud of me? I've been quite nervous and anxious about my result because I don't think I did well. But it seems that my effort worth the while.

'Secret mission on the run. Wee~'

I Still Love You

I think I should elaborate more on what I posted on my wall yesterday.

In case you're not following my facebook wall, this is what I said,'I'll flirt around; date another guy; kiss another one and have sex with another, but I still love you.' I've been watching a series lately, two of the character in it had a weird relationship. They weren't just normal friend nor lover. They love each other, meet up once in awhile, have fun, enjoy seeing each other and such. But on the other hand, both of them still flirt around, play around even had one night stand here and there. What I'm trying to say is not me myself wanna try it out, yet. lol. Well, there must be something that tie both of them together and still wanna be together one day or never. Perhaps it's love?

To be continued... Off to work.^^

RAWR~

SOME PEOPLE CAN JUST DO SOMETHING WITH THEIR BACKBONE STRAIGHT. NOW I KNOW! NOW I REALLY KNOW! SCREW YOU!

The situation is different! Can't compare. Imma just gonna practice the art of DON'T CARE. Suit yourself! >.<

I'm an idiot! Stupid! Whatever!

Detective Lily Around the World

Few days ago I was furious, anxious, nervous, stress, worry, uncertain, depress, and what ever words to describe my feeling the other day. But now, I'm blank. Really blank. Don't know what to do, where to go, how to pass, who to turn to... etc. LOL Yea, I'm just crapping. Yea! I'm free now! Exam and assignments are finally over. But just for this one semester. Soon, more to come. I'll just start enjoying my holiday now.

What to do in winter? Nothing better than having steamboat with friends. Especially it's Tom Yam. The best thing is, it's after exam. Wee~ We had steamboat at Victor's house. And the Tom Yam was great to the max. So, guys! What's next? =D

I just came back from the breathe taking Great Ocean Road trip with Karen and some other friends. The view was just simply beautiful and amazing. The great ocean view just reminds me of how tiny we are as a human. Why being torture by emotion and change. Just live life fullest with no regrets.

Talking about the trip, we had fun camwhore-ing all the way. Until me and Karen were strike by the wave and our shoes get wet. How bad is that especially when it's winter. LOL. We had been walking on wet feet whole day until we reach the cottage. The cottage was lovely with a beautiful vintage fire place and a warm and cozy bed. Nothing creepy like we thought it would be. I would definitely wanna go back and stay there again. We washed and dry our shoes with stuffing newspaper in it and we even dry it with hairdryer. How smart are we^^ manage to get them dry by morning. Phew~ The next day morning, we had our breakfast at the beach. How relaxing. We did some jumping and photo taken. They were lovely. Well. Stop the crap and let the pictures do the talking.

By the way, detective Lily korek-ed something again. Call me stalker the great. It's not a good thing to be one thou. But hey guy, told you I'll find out for you. You're her so many 1st.

It's her 1st time asking a guy out.

It's her 1st time spending 12 hours with a guy.

It's her 1st time stuttering, not knowing what she's talking about.

It's her 1st time feel like living in fairytale.

"How's that? Are you touched?"

Oh ya, if you're gonna lie, try harder next time.

Wee~

Finally~ My exam is over! Yea, exams and assignments are finally over for the first semester. The sleepless night that I had is now all worth the while. I didn't screw up my exam, in fact I think I did well, no regrets. Thanks to Manjit and Cassey. We did it guys!

After those countless sleepless night, had come to the consequence of teabag size eye bag and also coin size dark circle. >.< What should I do?! The eye gel won't heal so fast. I shall get myself some lemon and mask everyday. Or should I get a better concealer? Oh! Or a better solution is to sleep earlier everyday. Yes! Beauty = Sleep. I should sleep more in this coming holiday.

Well, the holiday is here. What should I do? Hmm... People please date me! >.<

Haha, everyone is in Malaysia. How?! Grr... Nevermind, I shall earn more money this coming holiday and finance myself for the coming Winter Sale! More and more baju, more and more shoes, more and more cosmetics, more and more food! Right, I'm on diet lately. So, 48kg awaits me! Watch me!

No pics for this time. I wouldn't want to show my ugly old sleepless dry face.

By the way, my coursemate, an exchange student from France, Anthony is going back coming Monday. Aww... I'm so gonna miss you, the class teacher. ^^

Oh ya! I know I've been really unreasonably emotional during that period of time. Sorry D~ ^^

Wait For Me!

La la la~ Going a bit crazy lately. Stress bit. Exam next Wednesday.

Well, I've just finished all my assignment, like finally. Fuu~ That was really hectic. Finished it with 3 sleepless night which cause my teabag size eye bag >.< I need cucumber! Well, concealer may help too. hehe. Anyway, back to the assignment. I can tell you, I'm now the Tim Burton expert. Well not to the extent. But I can tell you all Tim Burton's history. Cause, my assignment was about Tim Burton. (Gaaah, shuddap! Nobody wanna know!) and it's freaking 2000 words. Kill me please! I rather die!

Anyway, after my Wednesday exam, I'm so gonna start partying! Somebody bring me out please *doggie-eye* Well, I can go myself wert. Cheh! Oh ya, and my trip awaits me. Yeay~ This holiday I'm gonna earn a lot of money! Play a lot! Spend a lot! (NO! Except this 1) Sleep a lot! Travel a lot!

So my bed, my trip, my money, my piggy, my pillow, my wallet, my prince (mana prince o?!) shall awaits me! Soon! Very soon! I will be... back? No! No holiday in Malaysia. But shall have fun in Melbourne. Wee~

Well, haven't been eating much. Then shall add, 48kg awaits me! Muahahaha. See me hot and sexy!

"I love tortoise"

To Be or Not To Be

OMG! I just finished my 2000 words research paper. Relieved? Not yet. I wonder if I could pass the subject. *Cross finger cross toe* God! Please let me pass the subject. I have to! I don't wanna fail it!

Three sleepless night is definitely exhausting. I wish to have a good long sleep now. On my comfy bed. But hey wait! Exam is coming next. Would it be more and more sleepless night?

I wonder, should I or should I not retrieve my password in Facebook and back to business. No, the proper word should be back to addiction.

Breakie

It's 6.23am now. I'm now still in the uni library trying to finish up my assignment. Just finish a hearty breakie at McD. It was definitely refreshing and satisfactory. Besides, I just finished an ice cream with Jeremy. We're definitely going crazy. After a 7 hours work and a sleepless night and now I'm still up trying to write my research paper. I have the structure, I have the idea, but I'm doing the research and trying to write out something. But it is not that easy. Writing now is like such a tragic task to me. I am not good in writing, structuring information and putting information together. Bla bla bla, I'm abit talking crap here already. Adrenalin stimulating. I feel awake. But I know my energy is definitely going down. Gonna black off soon. But I'll try to stay up. Until I finish everything and I can go home and have a good night sleep.

Ralio • Makan

Argh...! Finally! 2 Assignments down! 1 Assignment and 1 Exam to go! Wee~ It's gonna be over soon. Real soon and I can't wait for my holiday. ^^

Had my Radio Program aired yesterday. There were couple of mistakes here and there, but I think overall was fine. Hope I'll pass. But anyway, it was fun. ^^ I like I like.

After that we went for a lovely dinner at Leveson St. in a restaurant call The Leveson. It's Tuesday so it's a Chicken Parma day. We shared an American Parma and an Entree Salad with Caramelized pork and prawn with sweet and sour sauce. Yum yum yum~

After a yummilicious dinner, followed by a warm and hearty dessert at Koko Black. Gosh, it's another Chocolate Feast. How can I not be fat!? Shit >.<

By the way, my cousin brother came to Melbourne with the wife. Of course can't miss out to meet up and grab my things. (That's my intention actually =P) and had a satisfactory Har Mee in YY house. That was like the best Har Mee ever. (This is my main intention. LOL) Feels great seeing my relatives here in a foreign place. It makes me feel like home again. Aww...

Well, the due date is approaching soon. So, sleepless night approach too. But before that, I'm gonna get a good night sleep tonight and get myself stay up tomorrow night at the uni library. I will make sure I finish the assignment before Saturday. So guys, wish me good luck and I shall come back to you in maybe two days time? hehe. Ciaoz~

" I Love Reading Letters."

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