My Homework

My Homework

Fuu~ I just finished an assignment due next Monday. Yea, why did I do it in such a rush? Because I have plenty of assignment due the same time! So I just finished the quite easy but not very easy assignment. LOL. What am I talking about?

Working on this assignment, reminds me of my grandmother again. Well. I really miss her, that's why. She is the best person I've ever met in my life. The assignment is about memory. It's a broad topic huh. But first thing that comes to my mind is about me, my grandmother and my mother. Us. My grandmother love listening to oldies and watching those Chinese performing art, which I call it 'dok dok qiang'. LOL. Sometimes I enjoy watching it too. Cause the story is really nice.

Well, you can have a look at my site.

Where? Just click on picture la doink~ ROFL

Well, tomorrow onwards is another hectic week to go. Wish me luck people and I shall see you in 2 weeks time. Hopefully.

Hearty Weekend

Hearty Weekend

Yesterday morning actually woke up at 8.30am and went shopping AGAIN. But this time I went to DFO with Eric and I bought a pair of sneakers. Like FINALLY. It's not that expensive thou. I'm gonna get rid of my old Converse. But thanks to it, I've walked through such a long journey with it. I still love it anyway. Then, Eric didn't got anything at all. He is the one who wanted to go shopping but ended empty hand. LOL. 

I had a lovely, hearty, satisfactory dinner yesterday. Thanks to Victor. ^^ He came, after I finished work, and we went for Korean cuisine. Was a nice place thou. We had made a wise decision to have an early dinner, otherwise we will end up queuing for a table. Phew~ Was really nice. Then, went for dessert. Honestly, I'm not a big fan of chocolate, but it was really nice.Yum yum~We had a great night chatting and laughing all the way. I'll kick you down the escalator next time, and don't dare me for another dessert. LOL

Well, my exam and due dates are commencing soon. Like real soon. In two weeks time? I might not sleep for the rest of the weeks. So please wish me luck or if you are kind enough to help me with my assignments just buzz me^^ otherwise, till you see me on facebook. That's the time when I'm either dead lack of sleep or I'm free. LOL.

"I'll remember about the movie and lets watch Nightmare at Elm Street. =P"

VIP to TNB

VIP to TNB

Woohoo, I had never in my life wake up at 8am in the morning, not that I haven't do that before but not for this purpose. I woke up that early to go shopping. Yeap! SHOPPING. Beli barang. Buy things. 買東西. And I bet Cassey had never in her life did that before. We went out at 8.30am, reach Chadstone at 9am. Eventually the mall is like just opened, not much people thou. Why would we wake up so early to go shopping in Chadstone? What is that so fantastic? It's VIP sale people! Chadstone Shopping Mall VIP Sale. But it is not like those Isetan sale or anything like those in KL. Eventually the whole mall, all the shops will be on special sale for one day. For instance, 50% off on selected item in Coach. Haven't do this for a very long time since my birthday month last year. But I only bought a dress, a knitwear, and an eye gel. That's old. Damn cha right? Hmm... Thought wanna get something from La Coste, but I didn't get it too. Can't get the size I want. Grr... After a good 6 hours shop, what's next?! Movie of course. Letters to Juliet is on today. It was really a sweet and lovely movie. It's really nice to me. Eventually the whole cinema is only the 3 of us. We are really like VIP today, as if we occupied the whole cinema for ourselves. LOL.

After movie, we took a bus home. But to get the bus, we waited for an hour. Yes! 1 hour. Actually we missed a bus which can take us to where we came from, of course the bus we took after that can bring us home too. But it is a 1 hour journey to get home. Total up will be 2 hours! 2 hours! Can you imagine that?! If I'm in KL, I can just drive and go home, that only take me half an hour, maximum. Terrible! Now I miss my car. = 3=

" I'm madly, deeply, truly, passionately in love with you."

Wait? No More!

Wait? No More!

I hate waiting, I really hate it very much. Why do we have to wait everyday? Waiting for train, waiting for people, waiting for turns, waiting for calls, waiting for time to pass, waiting for payroll, waiting to cross the road, waiting for expectation...etc. Do you really know how much time we spend on just waiting? No, it is a waste. Our whole life had already been spending time to wait for the time when we have to go to where we should go, why would we want to spend time on other stupid blind wait? I'm done, I'm really done with waiting. It's really frustrating. Grrr...........>.<

It's Me, in Melbourne

It's Me, in Melbourne

It's autumn here in Melbourne. Leaves are getting red and falling all over. Everyday seems to be so chilly and gloomy. It's kind of a depressing season though. I'm sleeping more and more. As days getting colder and colder. Gosh, and my food intake is like, I wouldn't want to describe about it. It's really... BAD!

Well, I've stopped facebook for the time being. Ridiculous right? Sounds like something that will never ever happen on Lily. This is like a miracle. But yes I'm doing it because it's my final project period. Work load is crazy. I haven't even start any one of them and they all due the same week. Two of them even due on the same date! Why on earth lecturers wanna do this to us?! Gosh! Anyway, luckily I just killed one of them last week. I mean my assignment of course. It's a group assignment. And I have this really uber madness cute groupmates. We had our presentation in class the other day. Was not too bad. I hope I did well. But I'm kinda nervous about it though. I'm now working very hard on my Network Literacies final major project. Which requires me to think broad, think deep and think more.Trying very hard to figure out what to do. hmm... Hope it won't take me too long to figure out. 

By the way, I went to the Level One of Barista training in Toby's Estate Espresso School. Was great and I learned a lot. Which I could hardly learn it back in Malaysia. Well, it was just level one. So much practice to do actually. I'm still not very good. Way to go. Petrie really like me. But as he started to expect much from me, I feel the pressure. Hope I won't disappoint him. I don't like to disappoint anyone. Anyway, I'll do my best. ^^

"I like it. I really like it. It was the sweetest thing ever. The effort, I appreciate it much. I mean it. Really."

Lost

Lost

This is like the don't know how many times I've been lost. Really lost. Sometimes, I keep pondering about whether what I'm doing now is what I really want? Will this lead to what I'm looking for in life or future? I wouldn't know. Nobody would know. I used to be very sure about what I'm doing, where I stand and what's my strength. But not anymore. I feel helpless with my work, my things, what it requires. I don't know what I'm doing. Feeling helpless. But at the same time, I wouldn't want to give up. Cause I know, when this is over, I will be free. Real free.

Time flies, I've been here for 3 months. Didn't know what I'm doing, what I have to do. I scared, I phobia, I'm afraid, what ever way you call a fear. I'm now in it. Deep in it. Wonder if I would be more knowledgeable after this. Or, even more lost? What is going on with me? Keep ranting about this crap. Should start doing my final assignment which I barely understand what the lecturer want or what is it required. I'll hang on. I hope so.

Motivation • Inspiration

Motivation • Inspiration

I don't know why but I just don't have the motivation and inspiration to do my homework nor study for my final. I've been procrasinating so much to get it started. This I'd definitely not a good sign. I don't wanna fail my subject. I can't bear to fail any of them. I'll get killed! Seriously. Somebody please help me! Gosh, really I need motivation and inspiration. Things are getting on my nerves. It just won't get better. I seriously need an urge to get something started.

Future?

Future?

I promise to show you guys the yummilicious sorbet I made yesterday. Now, here you go. ^^

Well it's not something very hard to make. But it's just a simple and nice dessert. Had it with my lovely housemates. *Happy* I wonder if people would think I'm obsessed with food and cooking. I like exploring. You know, cooking gave me a sense of achievement which you can't really get it else where. I doubt myself in all ways. I doubt myself can do everything. But food is very straight forward, if the person likes your food, it's there on their face. =) I just feel happy about it.

Earlier, after class I actually went for a coffee with Cassey and Brian. It was a lovely cafe. With nice cafe and the boss was quite nice. A warm place.

We chat a lot, about plans, about dreams, about reality, about photography...etc. We were talking about what Brian wanna do in future and what is about in Malaysia market. Sounds like some kinda serious topic right? And we kinda like discuss about our own view. Ended up with him saying I'm a realistic and kinda like a closed-minded person. Cause he say marketing person should be somebody who has high EQ and tolerance of acceptance. Well, to some extend I am really a person like this.  I get worked up with things. But as I start to work, I started to learn. Learn to not show everything on my face. This is a world that don't like to see the ugly part of it. So, yea. I'm learning. Even if I'm really angry, I don't show it. This is a practice. A practice of EQ. I'm still a newbie. He also said, marketing does not suit me as my career.True. I totally agree with that. I'm not a creative person honestly. I'm just equipped with skills. Editing skills, PR skills, writing skills...etc. But, I'm definitely not a creative person. Probably, I think in the future, I would diverse to something else to be my career. I thought of taking law, but sometimes I would think, does law really suits me? Or what suits me best? I'm lost sometimes. But I know taking comm is not wrong. But it won't be what I'll really do in the future.

Oh ya, tell you something exciting. My bestie, Zul and wife is gonna have a baby soon. So happy and excited about it. =D No matter it's a boy or girl, I just wish Mohaiza and her baby healthy. Wonder if I could be back on time to see the baby when she deliver? Huu huu~ Excited. A good news for today.

Coffee • Food • Seduction

Coffee • Food • Seduction

It's been a week. Hmm... This has been a busy week. Really busy with work, homework and outing. Of course all the outings has to do with eat. LOL. Don't know since when I realize that I love to eat. Like really love to eat. Everyday, I've been thinking about what's new to try out today and what's to cook today.

Worked three day straight. Practicing my barista skill. Well, I'm almost there I guess. Almost. But not good yet. I passed the test and got the job of course. Gonna go for a barista training. Boss gonna pay for it. Seems like some quite advance professional course. I'm going professional. LOL

Coffee, is not something I fancy. Cause I tend to get dizzy when I take coffee. But something weird, I don't experience that over here when I drink while working. I've been drinking quite a lot. But won't really get addict to it. Hmm... I'm weird. 

Over the weekend, I had a lovely gourmet dinner after work at cousin's house with cousin's family and also Vincent and Pearly, which was superbly wonderful.  Let me tell you about the dinner. What's on the menu?

Entree- Nyonya Pie Tee

Soup- Mixed Fishball with Chicken Soup

Main- Oso Busso with Nasi Minyak

Dessert- Pineapple Sorbet with Mandarin

They are just wonderful. It's well made by my cousin of course. ^^ What else we had? We had another dessert for the day, which is a nicely made chocolate mud cake. They are really nice and we can't bear to eat it. Just too beautiful to be destroy. Anyway, we ate it too.

Much laughter going on that night talking with someone with some life experience. We were talking about this sex issue again. Gender issue I mean of course. 

What is the first rule to get a guy? Knowing what you have and what you can do, which is what you are capable in catching a guy. 

What is the second rule then? Get a target of course, but in Vincent's word, it's call VICTIM. Yea, victim. Is it that bad to be target? Hmm... Understand your target and know what your target have.

What is the third? Which is the most crucial one. Knowing how to create this very thing call - 'illusion'. Which actually laugh my ass off.

Illusion is another words is conning. Being with someone is about giving what he/she desire but in your way. Not necessary to be the proper way. Giving people hope is an illusion. Illusion to drive someone to something. This is not cheating, nor lying, nothing to do with trustworthy. Say it in an ugly way, what does a man desire when comes to a women? Nothing else but just S.E.X. Nothing more than that. And Vincent agreed it. So I asked him, after sex, there is nothing else to look forward, what drive a family then? Hmm... This has to do with seduction then. 

He told me there's 3 types of seduction. What is it? 

1. Physical seduction

2. Mental seduction

3. Spiritual seduction

Hmm... Well, the 1st and 2nd type is understandable. But what is spiritual seduction? I'm gonna see him and each time I see him, he is gonna explain a type of seduction to me, which means I'm gonna have a few more lesson to go. LOL. I'm looking forward to it. I think he shouldn't be a physiotherapist but he should be psychiatrist or maybe a magazine writer. Interesting. 

By the way, I made my house a box of Lemon Lime Sorbet. Show you guys some other time. Time for homework. Ciaoz~

M.A.D

M.A.D

You know, when you are mad to the extend, you won't get angry, you won't scold, you won't do anything. But the heart is feeling so bad that you want to just leave everything behind and get some sleep. I'm having this feeling now. Yes, I'm mad. Very mad. But I just don't know why I can be so calm and quiet. I just didn't do anything stupid, scolding, throwing tantrum, nothing! Basically really nothing but sitting here quietly typing this words out. I don't know when will I burst out. Or maybe when someone evoke something, some issue, I might crash I think. This sounds a lil bit stupid, but that's what I'm feeling now. MAD!

"Please, just leave me alone..."