Sucks

Sucks

I hate my life!!! Sucks!!!

A Letter to R

A Letter to R

Dear R,

I know you're stress. But please chill while reading this.

Well, I haven't wrote to you for a long long time. How have you been? Missing me much? I guess so. Heard about you. Please don't freak out when bad happens. They happen for a reason, somebody always tell me this. I believe in it too. He hasn't treat you right probably because he don't know how to handle you. You are not like the others, you're special and precious. Trust me. At least you are to me. You deserve to get what is good for you. He is good, undeniable. But in a way, he is also abusing you darling. Mentally. How long could you stand being torture like this? I'm not being demotivate here, I'm saying this for your own good. He may be the best thing in this world, but at the same time, he might be the worst thing you've ever had in this world. Give and take. Just be yourself. Don't diverse to some psycho, obsessive and irrational person, because I know you are not. You are as perfect as and angel.

Crying over broken promises is no use. They can't be mend. He won't even remember or even care about it. So just don't put up much expectation. Go as flow. You'll find interesting and wonderful things happening. From him perhaps? =) Stay as who you are. Live on!

I'll talk to you sometime alright?

Love,
Ly

100

100

100 days to go.

That's quite fascinating to thought about. Planning had been going lately. Plans about what I'm gonna do after I graduate; plans about my holiday; plans about my future; plans for my finance. Everything has to really plan it out.

Well, actually I just got back from my holiday. Shouldn't be homesick so soon. But thinking about the assignment coming like giant waves, now I miss holiday already.

Since I'm here already, nothing much can be done even thou I miss my holiday. So, I think I shall plan out for my coming spring holiday. Wee~ So much to plan about. I shall also plan for my holiday when I'm back to Bolehland. Well, I do have much to do. Hope everyone is still there for me.

Life isn't easy over here. To sustain for my finance, I really have to come out with a brilliant plan. Cut my diet is the first thing I'm gonna do. Well it's not solely to save, but also to slim down. I've freaking gained 3kg in Malaysia. >.< That's really bad. Besides that, I will really have to WORK hard to earn that money. But assignments came along, since this is a semester with only assignments and project. No exams at all. Well, it kills, in a way. When it all pile up. But, luckily, looking at the schedule I sorted out, didn't really pile up but it comes like waves. Every week is a due date. So, I will really have to work hard on this too. 

In order to work hard on both the thing, a healthy body is needed. But unfortunately, flu and tonsil virus has got to me. Down. Boo~ Sicked for the past two days. Sorry for keeping you guys worried about me. I'm well, pretty much I guess. Will recover completely soon. 

Now, what I really need is some motivation to get my work started. Had been procrastinating much. Move girl! Move!

"I can't wait to be back."

Self-Denial

Self-Denial

Too much things running in my mind. I need a peace of mind. I wanna get rid of everything and just focus on myself. But, I can't.

I've been doing some really stupid things lately. Really stupid. I don't know why I did that. Don't even know how did I came out with the idea of doing it. I'm changing. I can see myself changing. To somebody I don't know. Horrible, and scary. Really. 

I don't know if it's me myself think too much, or is it really happening. She did it right after that incident. This is like somebody told her to. Have you been talking to her? Much? Well. Perhaps the answer is obvious enough. How can you be such scary person that I don't even know who you are anymore. I thought I know you. I thought you're just like what I thought you are. But well the fact is that, I'm too naive to think that you're somebody like what I thought previously. This is something I never thought it would happen after all these years. I'm in self-denial. 

Wrap

Wrap

You know that day, someone said I'm an easy type of girl. Well, it's not a compliment apparently. He meant I'm a very easy type of girl, which means I'm easy to get. He even said something like, if he is the one going after me, he will get me for sure. It's like no matter who came after me, they'll get me too. Well, I wanna say:"Try me!"

Besides that, people think that I stalk a lot. On everyone. Please come on. I'm not a stalker ok? I don't have the time to bother about people's business. People also relates me to words like mean, sarcastic and probably scary. Maybe I am. Or am I? Well, nobody's an angel. Come on, face the fact. Even if a beautiful, kind hearted, soft spoken and gentle lady would go home and hit the bunny. Well, I never said I'm an angel. So, suit yourself thinking that I'm a mean, sarcastic and scary person. I'm not referring to anyone. So, please don't get offended.

I mean no harm to anyone. Please don't judge me! 

Sometimes, I got so demotivated when I didn't write something that people expect from my post. Or should I stop blogging? Hmm... What do you say?

Flew to MY Holiday

Flew to MY Holiday

Holiday is over and here comes the new semester. I just got back from KL on Sunday night, or is it Monday night? Confused.

Coming back of course there are much unbearable because I made my holiday happening, fun and meaningful in Malaysia. Reminiscing the moments in Malaysia is like a dream. Now I'm awake, everything is back to default. Back to uni, back to work, back to real life. I had fun going out with friends, but I can't seem to meet each and everyone, that's the saddest part. I'm so so so sorry people.

Well, it seems like I have fulfill almost 80% of my objectives going back to Bolehland for holiday.

I spent time with my parents at Cameron. Never been to any place with them for a long long time. Thou, it is not as fun as spending time with friends. But, it is precious. Oh, and I get to spend time taking care of my lil princess. Yea, the one Varren babysit that day. Now he love Xuan more than me. = 3= Should I be jealous? LOL.

Besides spending time with family, I spend time with friend eating. Yes! Eating any place, any time with them. And I gained weight. Yes! I'm like 5Xkg now! It's like Oh My Fucking God! >.< I'm so gonna start dieting. Eat healthy in Melbourne!!! I'll lose weight within this 3 months! I promise. I doubt actually.

Besides eating, I thought I wanna watch a lot of movies in Malaysia because it's really cheap! Dead cheap! But ended up I didn't watch much because no company. I watched like 3 movies only. But they were great. I thought I wanted to watch so so much. But I did not. Hmm... Nobody go with me. Pity. Well, I watched . It was awesome. I wonder if I would wanna stuck in there with my loved one. Would you?^^

Coming back to Melbourne is just like waking up from a long sleep. With a wonderful dream. A lovely one. But I just can't get enough of it.

Pictures? Check out over here. =)

Maybe just this one. Thanks to my dailou Lucas and my sis. They send me off. Wee~ <3

Big Daddy

Big Daddy

It was indeed a lovely week. That's what I can say. LOL

Well, last Friday was the only day I would have to stay home for one whole day (sad to say that.). What am I up to? Babysitting. Yes! babysit my lovely lil niece- Baby Xuan. I thought it would be easy and handy. I thought...

Baby came at  around 12.30pm after her vaccination. Of course my lil princess was as lovely as usual. Get her milk as usual and thought she would go to sleep after that like all the other babies. By the way, this is like the first time I take care of her on my own. She finished her milk, but! She didn't want to go to sleep at all! Fine, well I can play with her. Until Varren came with my lunch. Baby still up and playing. Can barely eat my lunch. After lunch, baby is still so energetic and luckily Varren is here to take care of her. He is a pro! OMG~ But understandable since he has so many nieces and nephews. He can really cope with babies. *applause*

Glad he is here with me. Otherwise I wouldn't know what I would do to baby. LOL. Don't worry, nothing to do with abusing. Oh, here comes the Big Daddy.

Awww~ <3 They are so adorable.