The Road Not Taken. Count Me In

The Road Not Taken. Count Me In

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Speaking Through My Heart

Speaking Through My Heart

I woke up this morning, all sad and gloomy. The feeling of emptiness and lonesomeness got to me so much that I almost cried. Well, I did cried in the car. Teared to be precise. Sis is leaving to Jakarta next Monday. It feels like I'm gonna be all by myself after her departure. Because she has always been there for me. No matter what, anything urgent, the first one who will come to my mind is her. I don't know what I'm gonna do without her. All by myself. Everyone said I'll be fine, since I left her to Melbourne alone. It's different. She'll still have my back even if I'm in Melbourne. But this time is different. I just feel different.

Me and parents never really get along. Especially since I've gotten this job, they had been complaining about it so so so so much. I know. It's out of concern about my safety. But I can't help, because this job has given me sucha freedom and opportunity that I know I'll never get it else where.

A month ago, I got myself into some situation. It wasn't suppose to be like that actually. It was suppose to be just a short one, but I got so serious with it. It's not right. Well, I know. I shouldn't have.

Never Look Back

Never Look Back

Talking about being friend. I'm fortunate to have had my two BFFs. Yea, they've been with me and always by my side. Good or bad. We fought some time ago. But it's all good now. I'm glad. Really. Can't bear to not be friends with someone like him and her. We're close with each other. Even our family, we know each other's family well enough. We care. Somehow, we're just like siblings. Brother sisters. How do you define BFF? To me, they are more than just friends, they are family.

How do you actually classify your friend?

Some people are just not meant to be anything in your life. Not even acquaintance. They are just not worth it.

"We've come a long way since that day
And we will never look back, at the faded silhouette~"

手牽著手

手牽著手

"我不需要轟轟烈烈，只要細水長流，白頭到老。現在我有了轟轟烈烈，還會白頭到老嗎？"

520

520

It's 520. 20th of May. It simply means ＂我愛你＂, "I Love You".

L.I.L.Y =)

Updates

Updates

I got a new job. Yea, finally~ I haven't been doing anything except assignment and doing nothing. This is like the 8th offer I got in 4 months. @_@ isn't that lil bit too much? How can there be so many positions suit me? My new job is something I see myself doing perhaps. It's back to F&B. I see a lot of late nights and drinking coming around. Overall, I would say I enjoy my work, I like what I'm doing so far. Anyway, it's only my 4th day. Haha.

Yea. I'm playing on fire. The fire is getting fiery. I was about to put it off, but somehow I just can't let go of the warmness that the flame could offer.

Anyway, talking about life. Every year, it will come to a point where I'll be lost in direction of what I want in life. Is it love? Is it career? Is it family? It is actually just simply what I wanna do. I wonder what would I be graduating from a LLB somehow. I love what I'm doing now. It's like I'll ask myself sometimes, what's the point of studying law after all. I enjoy doing it of course. I love the sense of what law could offers in guiding people in life. Some people take it in a good way, it will leads to good. But people who play along with the line, it will leads you to hell. Eventually.

I'm a good person. At least I think I am and I believe I am. =)

The Season of Break Up 4.0

The Season of Break Up 4.0

People! Stop telling me you wanna break up ><" The best part is, in the end you guys never really break up. What's the point of having the urge but not doing it?

Well, I understand. Sometimes people tend to think twice. There might be a turning back, there might be a possibility, there might be a change, there might be better. We tend to give ourselves thousands and thousands of reason to not break the tie between ourselves and the person we once love so much. Maybe this is just me.

But come to think of it. If the situation is not as worse or the feeling is not fading, why would you even have the idea of breaking up? It has to come to the extend that, you couldn't tolerate any longer.

What's after break up?  Get a rebound? Be alone? Be friend? Be an unleashed girl? Get together with some who hates and bitch about it?

I chose to be alone. Not lonely, not lonesome. I have people around me. I thought about rebound, but it's just not me. It's not fair. It's not fair to that person who really loves me but I didn't love back. No matter how much you try, you just can't. I didn't bitch, really. I practically didn't say anything after that day. I don't hate. Not anymore. I don't blame either. Maybe not anymore. This is just me, I'm not saying everyone should be like this. But I find this is the best way to get over it. Call me a hypocrite. I am what they seen.

Well, it's been almost a year. Time flies~ 

"Bitching is fun, but it degrades you."

An End is A New Start

An End is A New Start

What's ended?

My assignment. Haha! Yes, assignment of the year has just ended. Haven't stayed up till 5am (except clubbing) since I came back from Melbourne. Call me a blessed baby. Yea well, it ended. Phew~ I really wanna say, Law is no joke. It's really hard. The only thing I hope for at the moment is, I would pass my Law exam. *fingers crossed*

I'm a law student now. And I just came across an assignment of the subject I hate the most- Public Law. It's pretty much about politic and government administration law. I hate this to bits, yet this Saturday I'm going to Bersih 3.0 rally. I was never an up-to-date-politic-follower. Well, I do have some knowledge about what's going on in Malaysian politic thou. But I never like it, because it's so corrupted. Honestly, corruption happens everywhere. But not as bad as what is happening here now. Perhaps it's time for us to stand together, hand in hand. The government should hear our voice. We're not barbarian, we don't demonstrate like what happened in some other country, we come in peace. I bet it would be an experience in life. At least I could tell the next generation, I stood up for the country. Let's hope for the end of corruption.

Do Something

Do Something

You do things. You do what you want to do and what you're comfortable doing. Perhaps sometimes you'd have to do something you don't want to do but you have to do. You do things, it's not always out of own will. There'd be reasons. Be it for responsibility, for care, for love, for your own comfort, for what makes you happy.

Update

Update

I was always confuse and unclear about what I want. Yea, till this moment I'm still confused.

Well, that's not what I'm gonna say this round. I haven't been doing much lately. I'm trying to spend time with friends, but I just can't. I don't have the time. Apart from the assignment work load catching up, I'm so anxious about getting a job. A lot of interviews going on these few weeks. But I'm looking for the one job that I think I'll enjoy doing instead of doing something like what I did previously which was a huge mistake. Anyway, I'm not in a rush of getting a job after all because this LLB thing is really driving me crazy. Now all I could think of is case and more and more case. Otherwise it would be doctrine after doctrine after doctrine. Hmm... What I've got myself into? I'm not complaining. I'm really not.

I haven't been going out either. 2 months without clubbing, really? Have I changed? LOL. Perhaps I would've gone back to the nerdy curfew girl again. But I'm so craving for the feeling of alcohol rush in my blood and it gets up to my head. When I get all tipsy. Thou sometimes it gets a lil bit emotional. But I like that. I like it so so much. Miss it.

I needa focus. Focus on my work, my assignment. Sorry people for I could not spend more time with you people. I'll get the time back alright. Just bear with me.

"I'm definitely SINGLE and AVAILABLE. =)"

I miss

I miss

I thought I'd never do it again or go back to something I already gave up on. But nothing is definite. You don't hate someone for life, at least not me. Even the girl that I hate the most back in my high school days, we're talking now. I might just like you all over again. So, don't hate me. Or don't hate me for too long. I came in peace. =) Well, I know I can't do much. People hate, me. They just hate me. I can't control. But what I can control is to just be a better person. At least people who love me, love me for who I am. I'm me. So, starting loving me, because I will too.

Sometimes, I look back at the time when I was in Melbourne. The ups and downs that I've gone through in that one year, is like it's been ages ago. Because I don't hate, I don't rattle, I don't cry anymore. It feels like i've gone through so much. What happened in the past, they passed. I wouldn't hold on to it.

I miss some people, I miss some incidents, I miss some things, I miss some moments, I miss some tears.

Even if it's the worst time in my life, it has been the greatest moment that I'll never ever forget.

Now, I just wanna concentrate on what I'm doing and be prepare for what's coming. I need no drama. Stay away.

Believing

Believing

It has been the longest I guess. Things changed. People changed. I changed. I'm having the most difficult time in my life I'd say. I know this would be a challenge to me. I'd grow from it. I'd gain more than I lost. I'd find more and more than what I used to have. I just have to hang on it. Hang on, so that I could learn. Learn from the worse situation. I've been through it and I believe I can go through it again. I shall work very very hard. Hundred and one thousand percent of effort. I'd strive. I believe I would. I know I can.

2 • 0 • 1 • 2

2 • 0 • 1 • 2

The year has ended. New one is here. What is past is passed. Perhaps I shall learn to forgive. As I never regret what happened over the year. What is meant to be, it will be. I thank each and everyone that had made my year. It's been great with ups and downs. My life became so exciting which I never had before. I thank each and everyone that had made me who I am today. I'm stronger, tougher, better. Live life. Hope it's not the end of the world, even if it will be, I'm glad what I had came across. Happy New Year.