The Season of Break Up 4.0

The Season of Break Up 4.0

People! Stop telling me you wanna break up ><" The best part is, in the end you guys never really break up. What's the point of having the urge but not doing it?

Well, I understand. Sometimes people tend to think twice. There might be a turning back, there might be a possibility, there might be a change, there might be better. We tend to give ourselves thousands and thousands of reason to not break the tie between ourselves and the person we once love so much. Maybe this is just me.

But come to think of it. If the situation is not as worse or the feeling is not fading, why would you even have the idea of breaking up? It has to come to the extend that, you couldn't tolerate any longer.

What's after break up?  Get a rebound? Be alone? Be friend? Be an unleashed girl? Get together with some who hates and bitch about it?

I chose to be alone. Not lonely, not lonesome. I have people around me. I thought about rebound, but it's just not me. It's not fair. It's not fair to that person who really loves me but I didn't love back. No matter how much you try, you just can't. I didn't bitch, really. I practically didn't say anything after that day. I don't hate. Not anymore. I don't blame either. Maybe not anymore. This is just me, I'm not saying everyone should be like this. But I find this is the best way to get over it. Call me a hypocrite. I am what they seen.

Well, it's been almost a year. Time flies~ 

"Bitching is fun, but it degrades you."

An End is A New Start

An End is A New Start

What's ended?

My assignment. Haha! Yes, assignment of the year has just ended. Haven't stayed up till 5am (except clubbing) since I came back from Melbourne. Call me a blessed baby. Yea well, it ended. Phew~ I really wanna say, Law is no joke. It's really hard. The only thing I hope for at the moment is, I would pass my Law exam. *fingers crossed*

I'm a law student now. And I just came across an assignment of the subject I hate the most- Public Law. It's pretty much about politic and government administration law. I hate this to bits, yet this Saturday I'm going to Bersih 3.0 rally. I was never an up-to-date-politic-follower. Well, I do have some knowledge about what's going on in Malaysian politic thou. But I never like it, because it's so corrupted. Honestly, corruption happens everywhere. But not as bad as what is happening here now. Perhaps it's time for us to stand together, hand in hand. The government should hear our voice. We're not barbarian, we don't demonstrate like what happened in some other country, we come in peace. I bet it would be an experience in life. At least I could tell the next generation, I stood up for the country. Let's hope for the end of corruption.

Do Something

Do Something

You do things. You do what you want to do and what you're comfortable doing. Perhaps sometimes you'd have to do something you don't want to do but you have to do. You do things, it's not always out of own will. There'd be reasons. Be it for responsibility, for care, for love, for your own comfort, for what makes you happy.

Update

Update

I was always confuse and unclear about what I want. Yea, till this moment I'm still confused.

Well, that's not what I'm gonna say this round. I haven't been doing much lately. I'm trying to spend time with friends, but I just can't. I don't have the time. Apart from the assignment work load catching up, I'm so anxious about getting a job. A lot of interviews going on these few weeks. But I'm looking for the one job that I think I'll enjoy doing instead of doing something like what I did previously which was a huge mistake. Anyway, I'm not in a rush of getting a job after all because this LLB thing is really driving me crazy. Now all I could think of is case and more and more case. Otherwise it would be doctrine after doctrine after doctrine. Hmm... What I've got myself into? I'm not complaining. I'm really not.

I haven't been going out either. 2 months without clubbing, really? Have I changed? LOL. Perhaps I would've gone back to the nerdy curfew girl again. But I'm so craving for the feeling of alcohol rush in my blood and it gets up to my head. When I get all tipsy. Thou sometimes it gets a lil bit emotional. But I like that. I like it so so much. Miss it.

I needa focus. Focus on my work, my assignment. Sorry people for I could not spend more time with you people. I'll get the time back alright. Just bear with me.

"I'm definitely SINGLE and AVAILABLE. =)"

I miss

I miss

I thought I'd never do it again or go back to something I already gave up on. But nothing is definite. You don't hate someone for life, at least not me. Even the girl that I hate the most back in my high school days, we're talking now. I might just like you all over again. So, don't hate me. Or don't hate me for too long. I came in peace. =) Well, I know I can't do much. People hate, me. They just hate me. I can't control. But what I can control is to just be a better person. At least people who love me, love me for who I am. I'm me. So, starting loving me, because I will too.

Sometimes, I look back at the time when I was in Melbourne. The ups and downs that I've gone through in that one year, is like it's been ages ago. Because I don't hate, I don't rattle, I don't cry anymore. It feels like i've gone through so much. What happened in the past, they passed. I wouldn't hold on to it.

I miss some people, I miss some incidents, I miss some things, I miss some moments, I miss some tears.

Even if it's the worst time in my life, it has been the greatest moment that I'll never ever forget.

Now, I just wanna concentrate on what I'm doing and be prepare for what's coming. I need no drama. Stay away.