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Incredible • Life

"I have time I have time I have time."

That's what I'm thinking everyday. Same old phrase I've been saying since I came back. All of a sudden, I feel like I'm all packed up. I'm gonna be so busy in the coming days. Or perhaps years. I can see that coming.

I have plenty of stories to tell this round. Where should I start? Hmm... Perhaps let's start with a getaway to Incredible India.

Almost everyone who first heard about me going to India, would ask me:"Why India?" Followed by a questioning squirking face, something like this ="=?? Then, followed by an advice:"Beware of diarrhea." Haha. Well, I would say, India is an Incredible country. Thou I haven't seen the whole country, but I've seen the worst and also the best of the world. (Did I?) We went in a 3 girls group. Yea, just 3 girls. We're brave enough to explore this head twisting place without any solid planning with only 2 nights of hotel stay and a 2 way airticket booked. People were generally kind to us, except the part that some of the people couldn't speak English. That's when paper, pen and drawing take place. We thought it would me more of like a backpacking, bunk-bed, dirty, walking kinda trip. But ended up something more like a well planned teenager luxurious trip. Not really luxury thou, but some of the 3 stars hotel were really impressive. Like what we should do, we went to the Golden Triangle of India, which is Delhi, Agra and Jaipur.  A driver uncle drove us the whole journey, saved us from squeezing into smelly and hot train. Haha. The uncle was a really nice man, his name is Mr Santosh. Besides chauffeuring us around, he is really a thoughtful and caring tour guide. Telling us what to do, and what's not. Always concern about our leisure and safety. Of course, end of the trip we tipped him well. =) Oh! Me and Ser did get sick, on the last day of the trip. We got diarrhea, and I even got fever that night. This is sort of like a killer. Hmm... Well we still enjoyed. Seeing the magnificent Taj Mahal, living in the Holy city, passing by country sides, disappointment of not able to see any tigers. They were all wonderful, it is definitely an experience of life.

Looking back at the journey, somehow I think I'm fortunate and some of the scenes kept me ponder about life. For instance. There was this day where we have to take a 3 hours drive through a bumpy rocky road with dust and sand everywhere. I saw 3 young children in their school uniform, not really clean but neat and tidy. They were holding an apple in their hands. Looking at it, for kids like us wouldn't want to even touch it when it covered with sand and dust. Even their hair, hands and feet were the same, yellowish. Passing by them, I saw a few kids, probably around 2-3 years old looking at the direction of the 3 children jumping and smiling. Seems like they are joyful about something. Then I realized it's the dirty and dusty apple that brought them joy.

Besides, I also came across some people on the street. We were very defensive to them. Protecting our valuables. Probably these are the consequences of Malaysia Society and Media. They saw us carrying cameras. All they ask for was just a picture of theirs and maybe a piece of something from Malaysia which we don't even value the existence of it. Say, a pen for instance. It's a treasure to them from a foreign country.

They are different. An unwanted thing of ours could be the precious thing of their life and even brought them joy. What is iPod to them? Nothing. What is Prada to them? Just a name. What is steak to them? Just another piece of meat that could keep them filled up. These kept me ponder too. Thou I'll still enjoy the existence of these creations.

Apart of that, stories that came into my ears these days. I wonder, why struggle? Why hate? Why sad? Hmm...

One of it happened to be something to do with my past. It is happening on someone else now. Thou up to this moment I still can't get an answer if it did happen. I pity you. From the bottom of my heart.

It's almost 3 in the morning now. I guess I should hit the bed like soon soon. I don't want my face to look like a zombie and interviews started to schedule in. Till then, stay tune for more pictures of the Incredible India on my Facebook. Adios~
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The Terminal II

I just reached Kuala Lumpur airport about 3 days ago. Yes! KUALA LUMPUR INTERNATIONAL AIRPORT. I'm waiting for Christina Thong to pick me up. ><" Well. It's pretty early thou but yea. I'm back! (Unwillingly) I could have been still sleeping on my cozy bed now wrapping myself in my warm quilt with Smoochie running over me and jumping here and there making all sorts of noise.

I came back and didn't really stay and off I go to Singapore already. For trip of course. With a purpose, which is to attend a wedding. Joan and Joshua's wedding. I spend 2 nights in Singapore with jia and we went to the tourist places. It was fun. I haven't met my very best friend since I left. It's great we always go for trip together.

Since I came back, I tend to have the sense of insecurity and lostness. Don't know what to do, where to go...etc. It's frustrating. Besides that, the emptiness is getting on my nerve. I'm homesick. I miss my friends, I miss my cat, I miss my job, I miss my bed, I miss the weather, I miss the place, I miss the people. I'm looking forward to go back, look forward to meet all the people. I'll be back, I'm sure I'll be back.
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The Terminal

It reminds me of the movie by Tom Hanks.

Party through the night with all my friends was awesome despite the part that I was really gloomy and doomed whole night. Sorry peeps. ><" I only had a 4 hours sleep the night before at Ronald's place. After party was followed by the usual supper session while happened to be the worst supper I had not because of the food but who I met. Boo~ Went back with cow to Club 1202 again since Ronald is not around. ( Thanks for your accommodation, =P) I quickly showered and I shall meet Debbie at Southern Cross at 5.30am. Phew~ I'm lucky enough to have a 15 minutes power nap.

We flew all the way to Sydney. For one reason- Kpop Fest Concert. Everyone wondered if I'm really into Kpop. I thought I wasn't, instead I realized I am. Singing with all the songs, screaming my lungs out when my favorite artist doing their performance.

Reaching Sydney that early, of course we did travel around to look at this city. Well, it's the second time I came here. I didn't like it here, neither did she. Probably Melbourne had spoiled us too much and made us what we've become now. Critical. I mean difficult. LOL. We went to those "Tourist-must-go" spots for a look since Debbie hasn't been here before. Finding the public transport is really sucky. This is just personal comment, not a represent of the rest of the world. Well, the concert was awesome die. Watching 12 group of Korean artists performing is definitely an experience. Kara and SNSD definitely rocked the party! Thank you Debbie. :D

After concert, we didn't book a hotel or stayed over at any friend's place. Instead we waited at the terminal. And we even got shooed off because the terminal is closing. We have to make a move to the Maccas 10 mins walk away and took a 3 hours nap over there like everyone else did. That was seriously one hell of an experience. And we are now waiting at the terminal for our flight back to Melbourne again.

Nothing like Tom Hanks happened. Boo~

"totally in vain."
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Addiction

I was thinking about this whole day. I've been here in Melbourne for almost 2 years. I've seen people. I met different people from every part of the world everyday. Sometimes I think it is really one of the very important factors that made me who I am now. An environment can shape a person. I'm shaped.


I think I've changed. In many sense. Physically, mentally, emotionally and even my appearance. Well, everyone does change. But it depends how much you changed. I believed anyone who knows me would say, I've totally changed. In every way. I'm sure this is something good. Melbourne widen my eyes. Now I see my life, my world my future in a total different perspective from what I thought it was before I came here. I even changed my life value, or perhaps principle of life.


A lot of things, you just can't be bothered. Especially when it's none of your business. Just keep your mouth shut and keep out of trouble. No point getting involve with something that is not what you should bother about.


Something that, everyone take it very seriously. To me, it is not really anything really should be taken seriously. Instead it depends on what do you think. It's not like the whole world think the same way while some people might it is something very important and serious.


What have I become? Materialistic? Realistic? Selfish? Perhaps I would say I love myself more and more these days. Everyone should. It's not selfishness but it is something everyone should do before they start loving or caring anyone else. This is something really basic.


I love the freedom I own here. I love it. To the extent perhaps some people would say I abused my freedom. How abusive can that be when I'm doing something that I like but do not harm anybody else? I'm confused sometimes.

"You won't stop and you can't stop when you're addicted to it. You'll just keep doing it all over again even when you said you hate it so much. You'll just go on and on and on and on."
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Boy, Please. ♥

Everytime when I hear this song, it reminds me of a period of time where I think sisterhood is the most precious assets I've got. Thank you all of you who went through it with me. I'm grateful. You girls are the best thing God have gave me up till now. ♥


"After getting drunk, I cried
Waiting for you in front of your house
The fire inside the house
Seeing you with him, it's hard to breathe
Focus your eyes on her, kissed her
Holding her to fall asleep
I really hate you
I bite my lips, swallowed the tears
Standing here like a crazy girl

I wish it was only you
Forever it's you
Tears fall, sitting here hesitating to call you
I call
I just don't get it, get it
Why don't you get  it, get it
Please don't laugh looking at that person
Please don't kiss that person
Cuz you're the cheater, a liar
and a killer

If I close my eyes Baby
I still think you're by my side
Your breath, your love, inside of me
I will get away from your hold
Rain will wash away the separation
The memories I want to erase
To somewhere far into the darkness
Taking along the tears of pain

I wish it was only you
Forever it's you
Tears fall, sitting here hesitating to call you
I call
I just don't get it, get it
Why don't you get  it, get it
Please don't laugh looking at that person
Please don't kiss that person
Cuz you're the cheater, a liar
and a killer

The cigarette smoke between
You can go
It carved deeper in me
I cannot forget you
Oh Boy

Come back to me again

Screaming like crazy, I love you only
It was wrong sending you away
I regret and I wish
I wish
I just don't get it, get it
Why can't you get it, get it
Please don't hold that person in your arms
Please don't love that person
Cuz you're the cheater, a liar
and a killer
Oh Baby, I need you
You took my love
and killed it boy
You took my love
You took my love
and killed it boy
You took my love
and killed it boy
Don't do it
You took my love
and killed it boy
Why my heart cries
Oh Boy, (It's) like you killed me
You took my love
and killed it girl
Baby you killed it
Please don't leave me"


You girls know who you are. We cried, we laughed, we played, we fooled around. Those were the prettiest memories I had.