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I miss

I thought I'd never do it again or go back to something I already gave up on. But nothing is definite. You don't hate someone for life, at least not me. Even the girl that I hate the most back in my high school days, we're talking now. I might just like you all over again. So, don't hate me. Or don't hate me for too long. I came in peace. =) Well, I know I can't do much. People hate, me. They just hate me. I can't control. But what I can control is to just be a better person. At least people who love me, love me for who I am. I'm me. So, starting loving me, because I will too.

Sometimes, I look back at the time when I was in Melbourne. The ups and downs that I've gone through in that one year, is like it's been ages ago. Because I don't hate, I don't rattle, I don't cry anymore. It feels like i've gone through so much. What happened in the past, they passed. I wouldn't hold on to it.

I miss some people, I miss some incidents, I miss some things, I miss some moments, I miss some tears.

Even if it's the worst time in my life, it has been the greatest moment that I'll never ever forget.

Now, I just wanna concentrate on what I'm doing and be prepare for what's coming. I need no drama. Stay away.
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Believing

It has been the longest I guess. Things changed. People changed. I changed. I'm having the most difficult time in my life I'd say. I know this would be a challenge to me. I'd grow from it. I'd gain more than I lost. I'd find more and more than what I used to have. I just have to hang on it. Hang on, so that I could learn. Learn from the worse situation. I've been through it and I believe I can go through it again. I shall work very very hard. Hundred and one thousand percent of effort. I'd strive. I believe I would. I know I can.
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2 • 0 • 1 • 2

The year has ended. New one is here. What is past is passed. Perhaps I shall learn to forgive. As I never regret what happened over the year. What is meant to be, it will be. I thank each and everyone that had made my year. It's been great with ups and downs. My life became so exciting which I never had before. I thank each and everyone that had made me who I am today. I'm stronger, tougher, better. Live life. Hope it's not the end of the world, even if it will be, I'm glad what I had came across. Happy New Year.
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I Am Just Like Everyone Else

It's almost the end of a year. What I'm expecting for the coming year is all the business that awaits me. Normally when it comes to year end, this should either be a flash-back or a resolution post right? I should just be normal. Let's have a flash-back.

The year passed by in the speed of light. I didn't had a good start for the year. Instead it was really the suckiest in my life. I spent my New Year Eve stuck in the car when the clock strikes 12:00. Boo... Overall the starting of the year is kind of a balance, equal portion of happiness and sadness. It's a balance. I'm not complaining. But the extreme emotion change made me loss a lot of weight. Like 10kg? Haha. Well, I see it in a good way. I got a sexy waist from that. Haha.What is consist in the sad part. It's of course the break up. Nothing much I want to say about the break up. Well, I see it in a good way too. What I get out of this is more and more happiness, as well as all the freedom that I own. In return, I got loads of happiness out of the break up. I love myself more and more each day.

Besides the break up part, I got all stressed up because it's my final semester in uni. When I look back, it wasn't that hard after all. I'm fortunate to have got my degree without have to resit any paper. Thank God. Other than being stress for homework, break up and job, I've traveled around Melbourne having some great time with them. I had fun seeing the Prince of the Ocean, Hot Spring, Disney Exhibition. At the end of the semester, we went Gold Coast for our so-called Graduation trip.

Oh! This is when the drama comes by. Probably not many people know about this. Or did everyone already know about it? Yes! I'm talking about the back-stab, childish I-friend-u-u-don't-friend-him/her thing, gossips and non-stop gossip. Thanks to those people I actually realized who's really good to me and who really my friends are. Thank you "girls".

I'm not complaining. Seriously I'm not. Over all of the drama, I still feel happy. The year had actually treated me well. I'm different. In every way. I'll just look forward to the coming year. Hopefully it wouldn't really be the end of the world because I haven't had the TIME OF MY LIFE yet.

"What comes around, goes around."
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Incredible • Life

"I have time I have time I have time."

That's what I'm thinking everyday. Same old phrase I've been saying since I came back. All of a sudden, I feel like I'm all packed up. I'm gonna be so busy in the coming days. Or perhaps years. I can see that coming.

I have plenty of stories to tell this round. Where should I start? Hmm... Perhaps let's start with a getaway to Incredible India.

Almost everyone who first heard about me going to India, would ask me:"Why India?" Followed by a questioning squirking face, something like this ="=?? Then, followed by an advice:"Beware of diarrhea." Haha. Well, I would say, India is an Incredible country. Thou I haven't seen the whole country, but I've seen the worst and also the best of the world. (Did I?) We went in a 3 girls group. Yea, just 3 girls. We're brave enough to explore this head twisting place without any solid planning with only 2 nights of hotel stay and a 2 way airticket booked. People were generally kind to us, except the part that some of the people couldn't speak English. That's when paper, pen and drawing take place. We thought it would me more of like a backpacking, bunk-bed, dirty, walking kinda trip. But ended up something more like a well planned teenager luxurious trip. Not really luxury thou, but some of the 3 stars hotel were really impressive. Like what we should do, we went to the Golden Triangle of India, which is Delhi, Agra and Jaipur.  A driver uncle drove us the whole journey, saved us from squeezing into smelly and hot train. Haha. The uncle was a really nice man, his name is Mr Santosh. Besides chauffeuring us around, he is really a thoughtful and caring tour guide. Telling us what to do, and what's not. Always concern about our leisure and safety. Of course, end of the trip we tipped him well. =) Oh! Me and Ser did get sick, on the last day of the trip. We got diarrhea, and I even got fever that night. This is sort of like a killer. Hmm... Well we still enjoyed. Seeing the magnificent Taj Mahal, living in the Holy city, passing by country sides, disappointment of not able to see any tigers. They were all wonderful, it is definitely an experience of life.

Looking back at the journey, somehow I think I'm fortunate and some of the scenes kept me ponder about life. For instance. There was this day where we have to take a 3 hours drive through a bumpy rocky road with dust and sand everywhere. I saw 3 young children in their school uniform, not really clean but neat and tidy. They were holding an apple in their hands. Looking at it, for kids like us wouldn't want to even touch it when it covered with sand and dust. Even their hair, hands and feet were the same, yellowish. Passing by them, I saw a few kids, probably around 2-3 years old looking at the direction of the 3 children jumping and smiling. Seems like they are joyful about something. Then I realized it's the dirty and dusty apple that brought them joy.

Besides, I also came across some people on the street. We were very defensive to them. Protecting our valuables. Probably these are the consequences of Malaysia Society and Media. They saw us carrying cameras. All they ask for was just a picture of theirs and maybe a piece of something from Malaysia which we don't even value the existence of it. Say, a pen for instance. It's a treasure to them from a foreign country.

They are different. An unwanted thing of ours could be the precious thing of their life and even brought them joy. What is iPod to them? Nothing. What is Prada to them? Just a name. What is steak to them? Just another piece of meat that could keep them filled up. These kept me ponder too. Thou I'll still enjoy the existence of these creations.

Apart of that, stories that came into my ears these days. I wonder, why struggle? Why hate? Why sad? Hmm...

One of it happened to be something to do with my past. It is happening on someone else now. Thou up to this moment I still can't get an answer if it did happen. I pity you. From the bottom of my heart.

It's almost 3 in the morning now. I guess I should hit the bed like soon soon. I don't want my face to look like a zombie and interviews started to schedule in. Till then, stay tune for more pictures of the Incredible India on my Facebook. Adios~