Nervous

Nervous

I don't know why but I feel unreasonably nervous. This is not the first time but I really kinda nervous. It's because the people I'm gonna meet, the place I'm gonna go or the things I'm gonna do? The last time I felt this way was the night before my parents brought me to Sunway Lagoon.

Happy

Happy

I'm getting ready for tomorrow. 

Probably some of you would know what's going on. Hehe. 

I'm so excited now. Wee~ So happy.

I Will Be...

I Will Be...

I'm having a very very long holiday. Like almost 2 months. Hmm... Probably I shall travel around AUS and explore a bit. But everything needs 'kaching kaching'. Am, I'm really lack of 'kaching kaching'. ROFL~ Seriously. Went shopping the entire week. I mean last week and now I'm broke. Besides that, I spent a lot on food. OMG! Really ate a lot lately. I wonder if I would spend this much if I'm in KL now. Probably I wouldn't, I guess. I'll still spend of course. I had been wondering, what would I do if I'm in KL now? 

1. Attend UCSI graduation ceremony

2. Sing K

3. Eat around (Herbal Chicken Rice, Bak Kut Teh, Caffeinees, Longan Taufu... the list goes on and on.)

4. Go trip (Melacca, Penang, Ipoh, Kuantan...)

5. Hiking (Chilling Fall, Saga Hill, Gunung Nuang...)

6. Choose bridal gown and shooting with Ching

7. Party with the gang

8. Countless dinner

9. Yum cha

10. Clubbing

11. Shopping

12. Meeting up with people (including you, you, you and YOU)

13. Watch movie

14. Play dodgeball + Training with them

15. Renew my passport

16. Cut my hair

17. Dating
18. Shooting

Hmm... what else?! It's really a lot right? Well. That's just what I thought I wanna do. Hmm... All my imagination.

Probably I shall list down what I really crave to eat. One-by-one.

1. Longan Taufu
2. Quan's
3. Herbal Chicken Rice
4. Bak Kut Teh
5. Caffeinees
6. Klang/ K.Selangor Seafood
7. Saga Hill Roti Tisu
8. Sakae Sushi
9. Riceball with Ginger soup
10. Hoi Kee Fish Head
11. Shabu-shabu at Kuchai
12. Puchong Pan Mee/ Mei Yee Pan Mee
13. Snow Flake
14. Petaling St Ikan Bakar
15. Petaling St Longan Lo Hon Kor
16. Assam Laksa
17. Dim Sum
18. Nice dinner at Cafe Cafe

Wow... I think I'll grow fat in Malaysia instead of growing fat in Melbourne if I'm gonna eat those in KL. LOL

"Things will be better soon. I promise. "

Listen • Watch • Feel

Listen • Watch • Feel

Well well well~ Rise and shine. I'm now really having my holiday. Sleep at 3am, wake up at 12pm, brunch, laundry, room cleaning, facebook, movie, outing, work out, bla bla bla. Oh, not forgetting what I've been doing so far since my holiday started, SHOPPING~! I bought so many things and now I'm broke. But I'm happy to be broke. Rofl~ I bought so so many things for him and her and him and them and it and of course for myself. Like what my sister said, it's good to be broke when you shop till like that. Lol. Anyway, I got myself things that I like so I'm satisfied.

By the way, had been hearing too much story lately. About the story on my facebook the other day ( I wrote: he love you and you love him, but she love him and he love her. Oh, and they love you too) well, the story is kinda long, but I'll just shorten it.

It's between 2 girls and 4 guys. The End.

LOL. Is this short enough? Well, about love. I don't have much experience I guess. But I definitely have a lot of stories and own philosophy to tell. (here comes her perasan-ness again) looking at this complicated and messy relationship, basically there's nothing much to say but, I hope you and him will last forever. You're great and everything a man could dream of (maybe not all), there's aren't any reason for him to leave even if she had a crush on him. So just be confident and you'll be there, with him. Forever.

A question had been bothering me much lately. Am I a materialistic, realistic and mean girl? Well, I bet some of you would say yes. Especially you! I know you're reading this. Don't have to be shy, just admit it and continue reading.

Materialistic? Hmm... I love clothes, bags, shoes, branded, nice food, good life. Who doesn't?! But, I never wish to get it from anyone (I don't mind if you're willing to give me what I want ^^), I can do it myself. Especially, when I think I'm capable to get what I want on my own. So am I still a materialistic person? Yes, I think.

Realistic. Hmm... I like to dream, but I hate dreaming to. Ambivalent. Well, I have my vision, my plan and what I wanna be, and what I'm capable to be. So I'll stick with it and work very hard on it. So, uncertainty will always keep my confident off. That's why I hate uncertainty. I want everything to be assured. But the world us just not that easy and simple.

Mean. Well, I admit! I am mean. But only to certain people. Just don't make me hate you from the very bottom of my heart. Especially to those who don't really know me and start judging. I'm more than what you think I am. Please, you just haven't met someone like me and you think they are the best already. Your world is too swallow. Boo~

I Still Love You II

I Still Love You II

Alright, continue from what I left off that day. I said, perhaps it's love that kept the relationship goes on. Or is it something else? Being a couple like the couple in the series, it is really not easy. Trust is the first thing should be gained in a relationship. Without trust, nothing can be done. Everything is over. Trust is earned. A girl needs security, a guy needs security too. So, what are the criteria consisted to feel secure? In a relationship, it's between 2 person. Just 2. No one else should be in it, including family (mother... Lol) and even friends (xbf, xgf, xcrush, xxx, bff, who ever). No no! When there's more than 3 person, it should happen when you're married with kids. Sometimes, trust should be gained with respect and understanding between each other.

Being together, the couple should have something in common, not only interest, friend or career. But I think the best thing to have together is a common goal. Something 'we' would want to achieve. I told my friend this. What is important in a relationship is what they want now and future. The goal can be as simple as being together when the time comes. Girl always tell the guy, you don't understand me, you don't know what I want. Of course a guy won't understand this, because guy never think! Even if the do think, it's would be the simplest thought on earth. No offense. What a girl want is participation and involvement. They wanna be in your plan, they wanna be in what you wanna do, they wanna be in what you wanna achieve. That's why they ought to know everything about you. But guy always think they wanna achieve something by themselves and they want you to be proud of them, proud of their achievement. Which is why, girl will never understand and so do guy. Well, a relationship is not something easy. I think I shall just look around, just look. LOL.

By the way. Ever since my holiday started, I've been working almost everyday from the day I came back from GOR. It's freaking 9 days straight. I'm so proud of myself. LOL. I know I know, probably you're thinking much 'kaching kaching' coming in. Yes! But there are also a lot of them going out because I've been shopping much. ROFL. But I'm happy what I bought thou. Not branded, but a lot of stuff. Well, not that much thou. Because some of them are for my lovely family and friends. Wee~

Oh ya! The most important thing to mention about today is, my results are out! I got 1 pass, 2 credit and 1 distinction! Wee~ Aren't you proud of me? I've been quite nervous and anxious about my result because I don't think I did well. But it seems that my effort worth the while.

'Secret mission on the run. Wee~'