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Showing posts with label Myself. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Myself. Show all posts
The Season of Break Up 4.0
People! Stop telling me you wanna break up ><" The best part is, in the end you guys never really break up. What's the point of having the urge but not doing it?Well, I understand. Sometimes people tend to think twice. There might be a turning back, there might be a possibility, there might be a change, there might be better. We tend to give ourselves thousands and thousands of reason to not break the tie between ourselves and the person we once love so much. Maybe this is just me.
But come to think of it. If the situation is not as worse or the feeling is not fading, why would you even have the idea of breaking up? It has to come to the extend that, you couldn't tolerate any longer.
What's after break up? Get a rebound? Be alone? Be friend? Be an unleashed girl? Get together with some who hates and bitch about it?
I chose to be alone. Not lonely, not lonesome. I have people around me. I thought about rebound, but it's just not me. It's not fair. It's not fair to that person who really loves me but I didn't love back. No matter how much you try, you just can't. I didn't bitch, really. I practically didn't say anything after that day. I don't hate. Not anymore. I don't blame either. Maybe not anymore. This is just me, I'm not saying everyone should be like this. But I find this is the best way to get over it. Call me a hypocrite. I am what they seen.
Well, it's been almost a year. Time flies~
"Bitching is fun, but it degrades you."
Update
I was always confuse and unclear about what I want. Yea, till this moment I'm still confused.Well, that's not what I'm gonna say this round. I haven't been doing much lately. I'm trying to spend time with friends, but I just can't. I don't have the time. Apart from the assignment work load catching up, I'm so anxious about getting a job. A lot of interviews going on these few weeks. But I'm looking for the one job that I think I'll enjoy doing instead of doing something like what I did previously which was a huge mistake. Anyway, I'm not in a rush of getting a job after all because this LLB thing is really driving me crazy. Now all I could think of is case and more and more case. Otherwise it would be doctrine after doctrine after doctrine. Hmm... What I've got myself into? I'm not complaining. I'm really not.
I haven't been going out either. 2 months without clubbing, really? Have I changed? LOL. Perhaps I would've gone back to the nerdy curfew girl again. But I'm so craving for the feeling of alcohol rush in my blood and it gets up to my head. When I get all tipsy. Thou sometimes it gets a lil bit emotional. But I like that. I like it so so much. Miss it.
I needa focus. Focus on my work, my assignment. Sorry people for I could not spend more time with you people. I'll get the time back alright. Just bear with me.
"I'm definitely SINGLE and AVAILABLE. =)"
2 • 0 • 1 • 2
The year has ended. New one is here. What is past is passed. Perhaps I shall learn to forgive. As I never regret what happened over the year. What is meant to be, it will be. I thank each and everyone that had made my year. It's been great with ups and downs. My life became so exciting which I never had before. I thank each and everyone that had made me who I am today. I'm stronger, tougher, better. Live life. Hope it's not the end of the world, even if it will be, I'm glad what I had came across. Happy New Year.
Incredible • Life
"I have time I have time I have time."
That's what I'm thinking everyday. Same old phrase I've been saying since I came back. All of a sudden, I feel like I'm all packed up. I'm gonna be so busy in the coming days. Or perhaps years. I can see that coming.
I have plenty of stories to tell this round. Where should I start? Hmm... Perhaps let's start with a getaway to Incredible India.
Almost everyone who first heard about me going to India, would ask me:"Why India?" Followed by a questioning squirking face, something like this ="=?? Then, followed by an advice:"Beware of diarrhea." Haha. Well, I would say, India is an Incredible country. Thou I haven't seen the whole country, but I've seen the worst and also the best of the world. (Did I?) We went in a 3 girls group. Yea, just 3 girls. We're brave enough to explore this head twisting place without any solid planning with only 2 nights of hotel stay and a 2 way airticket booked. People were generally kind to us, except the part that some of the people couldn't speak English. That's when paper, pen and drawing take place. We thought it would me more of like a backpacking, bunk-bed, dirty, walking kinda trip. But ended up something more like a well planned teenager luxurious trip. Not really luxury thou, but some of the 3 stars hotel were really impressive. Like what we should do, we went to the Golden Triangle of India, which is Delhi, Agra and Jaipur. A driver uncle drove us the whole journey, saved us from squeezing into smelly and hot train. Haha. The uncle was a really nice man, his name is Mr Santosh. Besides chauffeuring us around, he is really a thoughtful and caring tour guide. Telling us what to do, and what's not. Always concern about our leisure and safety. Of course, end of the trip we tipped him well. =) Oh! Me and Ser did get sick, on the last day of the trip. We got diarrhea, and I even got fever that night. This is sort of like a killer. Hmm... Well we still enjoyed. Seeing the magnificent Taj Mahal, living in the Holy city, passing by country sides, disappointment of not able to see any tigers. They were all wonderful, it is definitely an experience of life.
Looking back at the journey, somehow I think I'm fortunate and some of the scenes kept me ponder about life. For instance. There was this day where we have to take a 3 hours drive through a bumpy rocky road with dust and sand everywhere. I saw 3 young children in their school uniform, not really clean but neat and tidy. They were holding an apple in their hands. Looking at it, for kids like us wouldn't want to even touch it when it covered with sand and dust. Even their hair, hands and feet were the same, yellowish. Passing by them, I saw a few kids, probably around 2-3 years old looking at the direction of the 3 children jumping and smiling. Seems like they are joyful about something. Then I realized it's the dirty and dusty apple that brought them joy.
Besides, I also came across some people on the street. We were very defensive to them. Protecting our valuables. Probably these are the consequences of Malaysia Society and Media. They saw us carrying cameras. All they ask for was just a picture of theirs and maybe a piece of something from Malaysia which we don't even value the existence of it. Say, a pen for instance. It's a treasure to them from a foreign country.
They are different. An unwanted thing of ours could be the precious thing of their life and even brought them joy. What is iPod to them? Nothing. What is Prada to them? Just a name. What is steak to them? Just another piece of meat that could keep them filled up. These kept me ponder too. Thou I'll still enjoy the existence of these creations.
Apart of that, stories that came into my ears these days. I wonder, why struggle? Why hate? Why sad? Hmm...
One of it happened to be something to do with my past. It is happening on someone else now. Thou up to this moment I still can't get an answer if it did happen. I pity you. From the bottom of my heart.
It's almost 3 in the morning now. I guess I should hit the bed like soon soon. I don't want my face to look like a zombie and interviews started to schedule in. Till then, stay tune for more pictures of the Incredible India on my Facebook. Adios~
The Terminal II
I just reached Kuala Lumpur airport about 3 days ago. Yes! KUALA LUMPUR INTERNATIONAL AIRPORT. I'm waiting for Christina Thong to pick me up. ><" Well. It's pretty early thou but yea. I'm back! (Unwillingly) I could have been still sleeping on my cozy bed now wrapping myself in my warm quilt with Smoochie running over me and jumping here and there making all sorts of noise.I came back and didn't really stay and off I go to Singapore already. For trip of course. With a purpose, which is to attend a wedding. Joan and Joshua's wedding. I spend 2 nights in Singapore with jia and we went to the tourist places. It was fun. I haven't met my very best friend since I left. It's great we always go for trip together.
Since I came back, I tend to have the sense of insecurity and lostness. Don't know what to do, where to go...etc. It's frustrating. Besides that, the emptiness is getting on my nerve. I'm homesick. I miss my friends, I miss my cat, I miss my job, I miss my bed, I miss the weather, I miss the place, I miss the people. I'm looking forward to go back, look forward to meet all the people. I'll be back, I'm sure I'll be back.
The Terminal
It reminds me of the movieParty through the night with all my friends was awesome despite the part that I was really gloomy and doomed whole night. Sorry peeps. ><" I only had a 4 hours sleep the night before at Ronald's place. After party was followed by the usual supper session while happened to be the worst supper I had not because of the food but who I met. Boo~ Went back with cow to Club 1202 again since Ronald is not around. ( Thanks for your accommodation, =P) I quickly showered and I shall meet Debbie at Southern Cross at 5.30am. Phew~ I'm lucky enough to have a 15 minutes power nap.
We flew all the way to Sydney. For one reason- Kpop Fest Concert. Everyone wondered if I'm really into Kpop. I thought I wasn't, instead I realized I am. Singing with all the songs, screaming my lungs out when my favorite artist doing their performance.
Reaching Sydney that early, of course we did travel around to look at this city. Well, it's the second time I came here. I didn't like it here, neither did she. Probably Melbourne had spoiled us too much and made us what we've become now. Critical. I mean difficult. LOL. We went to those "Tourist-must-go" spots for a look since Debbie hasn't been here before. Finding the public transport is really sucky. This is just personal comment, not a represent of the rest of the world. Well, the concert was awesome die. Watching 12 group of Korean artists performing is definitely an experience. Kara and SNSD definitely rocked the party! Thank you Debbie. :D
After concert, we didn't book a hotel or stayed over at any friend's place. Instead we waited at the terminal. And we even got shooed off because the terminal is closing. We have to make a move to the Maccas 10 mins walk away and took a 3 hours nap over there like everyone else did. That was seriously one hell of an experience. And we are now waiting at the terminal for our flight back to Melbourne again.
Nothing like Tom Hanks happened. Boo~
Addiction
I was thinking about this whole day. I've been here in Melbourne for almost 2 years. I've seen people. I met different people from every part of the world everyday. Sometimes I think it is really one of the very important factors that made me who I am now. An environment can shape a person. I'm shaped.I think I've changed. In many sense. Physically, mentally, emotionally and even my appearance. Well, everyone does change. But it depends how much you changed. I believed anyone who knows me would say, I've totally changed. In every way. I'm sure this is something good. Melbourne widen my eyes. Now I see my life, my world my future in a total different perspective from what I thought it was before I came here. I even changed my life value, or perhaps principle of life.
A lot of things, you just can't be bothered. Especially when it's none of your business. Just keep your mouth shut and keep out of trouble. No point getting involve with something that is not what you should bother about.
Something that, everyone take it very seriously. To me, it is not really anything really should be taken seriously. Instead it depends on what do you think. It's not like the whole world think the same way while some people might it is something very important and serious.
What have I become? Materialistic? Realistic? Selfish? Perhaps I would say I love myself more and more these days. Everyone should. It's not selfishness but it is something everyone should do before they start loving or caring anyone else. This is something really basic.
I love the freedom I own here. I love it. To the extent perhaps some people would say I abused my freedom. How abusive can that be when I'm doing something that I like but do not harm anybody else? I'm confused sometimes.
"
Happy Birthday to Me
心一跳，心就開始煎熬〜No no, this post is not gonna be emo. Because this post would be all about my birthday. Before I start, I wanted to say, none of my wish came through. However, I'm still happy and grateful. =)
Well I should start with my birthday eve. It's the 2nd day of Ronald's birthday thou. He invited some of his close friends to a dinner at Heirloom, a French and Japanese fusion fine dine restaurant. Of course I'm invited, otherwise why would I be writing this now? Silly. It's an eight courses dinner. We had much laughter with the present of everyone, it seems like a gathering than a birthday celebration.
After dinner, follow-up by the usual stuff. Of course it's clubbing. Ronald's booked the entire VIP lounge in Alumbra. The night was just awesome. Nothing better to describe but awesome. But the worst thing was me and Hayze have to walk this drunkard all the way back to King. Hmm... Well, it's a favor for the birthday boy. =P You owe me one. Nyahahaha!!! But, I'll make sure I never do this again. Walking back is a pain in ass. ><" No more. No more. Anyway, it was still a good night. A good good night. Besides the part about I puked in the club for the first time and luckily I didn't got kicked out. Phew~
Cassey called the next morning while I'm still nuaing in bed which I barely sleep that night. Cassey and the gang is bringing me to somewhere. Somewhere for some extreme sport- Water Rafting! I'm quite excited at the same time I'm anxious when I first heard about it because I'm not a swimmer. ><" Anyway, me, Cassey and Soon went up to Mansfield first. Kenyo, Mark and Mei Shi went after. We spent a night in Mansfield with steamboat and card game. Of course, it comes with a birthday cake surprise too. It was the only birthday cake I had this year. =)
Unfortunately, the activity was cut-off because the water level is not high enough. =( Well, I'm still happy about the trip. Really happy. Anyway, thank you guys. Love you all much. Muacks muacks muacks.
Finally, I would like to thanks each and everyone who remembered my birthday. While to those who don't remember, well, it shows how long we've gone. Cheers.
Oh ya! Talking about pressie. I'm very delighted about it. Haha!!! Thou, none of them are on my wishlist. But I'm grateful.
"YOU owe me. Because you never gave me a birthday pressie. Not even last year."
I Love You All
It's 5am in the morning now. I just came back from another awesome night out with those who I really call them friend. They not only play with me, laugh with me, but they also gone through some difficult moments with me. when I'm down, when I met a difficult time, they are the one who made me smile and feel alive again. I'm grateful that my last year here in melbourne, I met them. These will be the most precious memories with me for my entire life. Thank you.These are the memories that I'll being back with me and only we know how it's like.
I know, I'm being sentimental here. But this is what I wanna say to all my good friends.
Chaplin, our place. I wish, one day in the future, maybe 20 years or 40 years later, we'll still remember each other.
Perhaps some people will say these are just season friend, but season friend like them is something I'll treasure. I love them all. If you guys happen to read this, you know who you are. I love you all.
"I'm wet!!!" =P
New Start
I just got a meow at home. I mean here in Melbourne. =) Thou it's not like what I wanted, which is a snow white munchkin. But it is just so adorable. Of course her name is not like what I wanted as well. But I named her. Her name is Smoochie.noun
a kiss or a spell of amorous kissing and cuddling.I love kiss and cuddle, very much. Which, I hope she is as cuddly and loveable pet she will be. She will be living with Debbie here in Melbourne.
I applied for an internship program with a world renowned Marketing company in the States. In New Yoke to be exact. Some part of me wish I could get through and get a job there. At least for 6 months. It will be a remarkable experience. I'm sure it will be. But some part of me wish I couldn't, at least I don't have to think about the money part again and leave Malaysia again.
I always think about my future, everything is about my future. I'm a really selfish person. I know it. People said, life is not just about work. There are many more, family, friends and etc. But, now, I just want what is best for myself. Maybe I could live a life there, perhaps. I would still wanna try. I wanna give it a shot. Even if others disagree with me. I'll sort it out. I'm sure I could. I hope I could.
"Don't hurt her(me), anymore."
Least Expectation, Least Disappointment
My EQ needs to be elevated. I need to practice my EQ. I think my EQ is not high enough. Thou, I'm way better than a lot of people, but there're also a lot of people mastered it better than me. About work, about life, about interacting with people. Sometimes, I think I shouldn't take things so seriously. A word, a sentence someone said got to me so badly. Perhaps they are just kidding or it's nothing serious.I've been very patient all the time. Perhaps not to some people. (ps. I'll rawr to you because I trust you that you won't get angry and mad of me. Hehe =P) anyway, people tend to get you mad, annoys you, or even irritates you. Why should it matters? If it doesn't hurt you physically, it won't harm you if your mentally strong and optimistic.
Many people said I'm pessimistic all the time. Because I've been taught to be prepare for the worst. But what I need to learn now would probably be to just let it be. What ever will be, will be. Stop worrying about what the future holds. Wait! I thought I left everything to god about the future? Why should I een worry? lol How silly of me.
Well, my birthday. Yea, it is my birthday. I thought I didn't want anyone to make a big deal. But I'll get upset when no one give a damn about it. I'm just ambivalent. It is not just my birthday, but Ronald's fall on 2 days before mine. Then, should I give a damn? Probably there'll be a big party for him. Well, I only wish for a dinner with friends. A nice dinner. Perhaps with some pressie as well. I always love pressie. I never deny that. But, i shouldn't expect too much. Right? Just wait and see.
But I still have a short wishlist here:
1. A munchkin.
2. A trip with spa to Avillion again.
3. A handmade pressie.
4. Leica D-Lux 5.
5. Prada Lux Saffiano leather bag with Snap Lock, Cameo color.
Hmm... I'll add on soon I guess. Nyahahaha!!!
I'm not expecting thou. =)
"I pray that, you could be healthy and it will never return. =)"
因为爱情 Because of Love ♥
给你一张过去的CD听听那时我们的爱情
有时会突然忘了我还在爱着你
再唱不出那样的歌曲
听到都会红着脸躲避
虽然会经常忘了我依然爱着你
因为爱情 不会轻易悲伤
所以一切都是幸福的模样
因为爱情 简单的生长
依然随时可以为你疯狂
因为爱情 怎么会有沧桑
所以我们还是年轻的模样
因为爱情 在那个地方
依然还有人在那里游荡人来人往
再唱不出那样的歌曲
听到都会红着脸躲避
虽然会经常忘了我依然爱着你
因为爱情 不会轻易悲伤
所以一切都是幸福的模样
因为爱情 简单的生长
依然随时可以为你疯狂
因为爱情 怎么会有沧桑
所以我们还是年轻的模样
因为爱情 在那个地方
依然还有人在那里游荡人来人往
给你一张过去的CD
听听那时我们的爱情
有时会突然忘了我还在爱着你
What is love? Where is love? Who is love? When is love? How is love?
Questions questions and questions. Love should be fearless. Love should be selfless. Love is between two hearts. Just two.
I Wanna Be a Queen ♥
I wrote a post like this on FB: "I should feel like a Princess because I am one according to them. But, I wanna be a Queen!"This one actually requires elaborations.
I've been receiving so many pressie lately. From someone, from myself, from him, from her, from everyone.
I love getting presents.
I love getting surprise too. This is good surprise, I'm happy. Really happy. about it. Very. I bet you know what I've got. Haha. A beats, the Lady Gaga in-ear Heartbeats. They look like diamonds. They are just so lovely. I was surprised receiving it. Because it was totally unexpected. I like it very much. This is what I really call a surprise. I'm delighted. Very much.
Thank you for pampering me. I really feel like a princess. I should be right? :D
Besides, due to days of unhappy incidents and people around me that irritates me, I've decided to pamper myself with SHOPPING. Yes! I bought loads of things past two weeks, and I spent chunk! Of course things for myself and for people around me that I treasure. Now I know who is worth appreciating and who is not. I know very well now.
Well. Shopping continues next week on my paycheck day. HAHAHAHAHA!!! I'm so gonna get killed. =P
I love all my new babies ♥ My Baby MBMJ, MBMJ Jr, MBMJ Jr Jr. Oh! And not forgetting my Baby P. Ngek ngek!!
Sister also got a B. XD
If You Ever Gonna Read This
I have changed perhaps, according to many people. Maybe I have. But after all, I'm just wanting something more in my life. Is that wrong? I wish I have more, a little bit more. But when I get what I want, people said I want too much and it is not what I deserve. Once I lost everything, literally everything. But when I'm back on track, I lost balance. I lost the balance of being a friend of theirs and a friend of the others. I could have be like what they want me and expect me to be. But I can't. I can't help to be like that. Someone dragged me into this. It shouldn't be this messy. YOU! You dragged me in, and you push everyone away, and now you want all of them by yourself. You are selfish and mean. I could have been better maybe to just stay ordinary, but you told me I could be different. Live better and be treated better. Well, after all I'm best to be ordinary, stick with what I have and what I can afford. I can't afford to be the way I was anymore. I feel sorry to myself. Sorry to everyone, except you. You're to blame. Like everyone said. I hate you, from now on. I hate you, from the bottom of my heart. Goodbye.
Parents and Companies in OZ
Finally, I'm officially graduated. I'm out of UNI. But might get into it all over again soon. Haha. Anyway, parents and companies came to Melbourne for my convocation. I'm really happy about it actually. Since I haven't seen my parents for some time. They are still like the old them, never change. I think it is really true about human that you never change after a certain time of period or age. It will not change, including habit, attitude, perception and etc. We traveled around, whole family together. Around Melbourne, Sydney and of course Perth. Overall was alright except some part where the old folks nag and behave like "how they used to be". Yea, I were saying we went to cities to visit. I like the places where I could live out of what I have to face later on. Human's fact face and reality.Well, Sydney was just alright. We walked and walked and walked so much that my feet has blister. The pain was, urgh~ ><" The weather was so so hot that I thought it's Summer already. But well, the fact that it's still winter =( Sydney is not a place that I wish to stay thou it's also another city. Well, it just turned me off some part.
We went to Perth and we have our host and tour guide, June and Rod. Mummy's friend from the old days back in EMI. The brought us around, eating and touring Perth. It wasn't a big city but it's beautiful in it's own way. This place is quiet. But well, I can't imagine myself living in this place. Or perhaps I could the older days, but I don't know about now.
Anyway, I'm on my way now back to Melbourne. Wish me luck there. I wish I have more luck. Really hope so.
Gold Coast and Brisbane Getaway
Well, again, I should have blog this a week ago since I came back from Queensland for almost a week already.This is one of the trips that I spent the most in my life. In Ringgit I mean. Well, it wasn't that bad in terms of AUD. LOL. We should've just spend $179 for our flight only, instead we spent $379 for it just because of the stupid and not trustworthy Tiger Airway got suspended till end of July. We got to get another flight back from Brisbane, which cost us 3 times more expensive than what we bought previously. Screw them!!!
Anyway, the trip started with Surfers Paradise. Well, it does has a lot of surfers over there. But I didn't really get to go to the beach at all. XD. Of course, coming to Gold Coast you have to go to Theme Park and Worlds. We did went to Sea World and Movie World. Rides, rides ,rides and shows, shows, shows. Apart of these typical activity, we had the best steak I've ate so far in Australia.
We drove to Brisbane. It wasn't a long journey thou. Shorter than me going to Ipoh from KL. Just in case you need to estimate the distance. Or even shorter than going to Geelong from Melbourne. Short enough? Well, I finally get to drive a car in Australia. Hahaha!!! Anyway, Brisbane wasn't that fun after all. It's just another city. Nothing special thou. Well it was a good trip besides Brisbane seriously has a problem with it's town planning. Especially it's road. Gave us so much problem. ><" Well, I don't think I wanna go back to Brisbane again. It's too dead, I mean quiet.
To see what we did in Queensland? Check out my Facebook of course. =)
Papa and mama is coming to Melbourne soon. More trips and more travels. Ngek ngek!!
Well, I can see what I'm gonna write in my next post dy. On the way. I know I know, I rant too much lately. = 3=
Road That I'd Take
Why did I insist I would write this entry? I don't know why either. But I just feel like this is something that I have to put it in somewhere. If you don't feel like reading it, just tap on the "X" mark top right, in case you're a Mac user, tab on the "X" top left. Otherwise, bare with me. I wonder if I should really blog about it. Hmm...Over the month, too many good things happened to me as well as bad. Sometimes it feels like fairy tale or perhaps they were dreams. In the end, I'll still have to wake up. The feeling came back, once again. It's like the bond between me with people is so fragile that it might break anytime. I just feel like I'm so alone. Sometimes, don't even know who to go to. It's not that I don't have friends. I do. I have a lot of friends. But, at this moment, no matter what I do, I'm afraid it might affect the friendship and it will be gone forever. Therefore, I'm reluctant to move or even do anything. It's like no matter what I do it's not right. Not right at all. I don't know what to do.
People are not like what I used to think they are anymore. People are now more complicated, far more complicated than I've ever thought. Feeling tells.
Apart of that, my life is a mess. Big mess. I don't know where I'm going, I don't know where I'm gonna be. I'm lost. Once again. My relationship, friendship, life, career, study, everything is so messed up. Seriously. I don't know if I should stay. I don't know if anyone wants me to stay. I don't know where I belong. I belong no where perhaps. This is so terrifying. It's scaring me so much.
Anyway, I might be leaving the country in two months time. I wonder how would it like for me to go through these two months. Well, I do have a choice. The choice that I'm reluctant to take is to continue study by spending more and more money from my family to stay here. I couldn't be selfish. My parents are getting old, my sister needs to live a life. A life of her own without have to worry about me.I wonder, how far can I go with my qualification now. I doubt it. Perhaps, I shall consider about continuing. But I doubtmy ability to study too. Anyway, life is full of choices. Too many choices that I'm afraid to take.I used to regret about what I didn't take, now I'm afraid I'd be scared by what I've take.
No one could help me, like one of my mentor always say. I shall take a serious consideration and think about what I should do, not affect by anyone, anything. I need a peace of mind.
I'll have update about my GC trip later. Till then. さよなら~
Once Upon A Time
Ever since that day. I already forget what is it like to be indulge in somebody's arm being pampered. I already forget what is it like to be somebody's something. I already forget what is it like being love and adore. I already forget what is it like to be with you. I even forget what is it like to be in love.
As much as I want to live an ordinary life, I find myself couldn't escape the fact that life is dramatic and cruel. I learned to be on my own, I learned to weigh my friends more, I learned to be happy by myself, I learned to trust myself. This is a lesson of life.
Apart of that, I've seen faces. Like hypocrites, which I find it amusing when they are talking to me. Seriously hillarious. When you're telling too much lies, there's consequences. Which end up to be called a hypocrite, liar, or cheater. LOL. Well, I also realise, people usually gets along with people who are similar. What I'm saying is, hypocrite will always get another hypocrite. And they will live happily ever after. Sounds like a fairytale for them. Are they really gonna be happy living behind a mask? Or you can only be true in that way? I ponder. At least I can't. Truth is truth, you can't only believe what you want it to be true. So, get a life. Oh, you guys are having a life, perhaps. I could never live in it. Haha.
Cut the crap. What I need now, is a job. So that, I can support my own living and continue stay here. Another issue is, I needs to decide what I want to do after this. A Law degree? Or a Master in Communication? Hard choice. Anyway, I'm taking a Japanese language course next month onwards. Wishing that, I could go to Japan one day. Near future if possible. Well, I'm planning for a vacation end of the year. Actually I'm living a life nothing different from a holiday. No aims, no objective, no target, nothing. But, plenty of stuff to sort out. I'll sort it out soon. Very soon. Tell you guys more soon.
Before that, let me tell you a story:
"Mr Hypocrite and Mrs Hypocrite finally have their fairytale came true. Poor Mr Hypocite W, can't get what he want. Finally they have a new company, Mr Hypocrite F. And they live happily ever after. The End~"
Love Life
I've been lazy and procrastinating. About what? Assignments. Well, I've been lazy and not blogging too. It's been like that since I went back to Malaysia I guess. Sorry peeps. Sorry to those who read to keep update about me.
I think this will be a very very very very long post, since I'm gonna write everything that is going on with me lately. Anyway, there are so much to talk about here. About life, love, friends, career, study, family and etc. Too much. Where should I start?
Well, I shall start with study. This is my last semester apparently, but I'm still not ready to face the world yet. Don't really know what I want to do or what should I do after that. I don't see a reason for me to be back at the moment. But I have tonnes of reasons to stay here. I shall keep this to myself. =P Anyway, Law exam is just a week away. But I feel like I totally let go of everything about study since the day I hand in my last project/ assignment in my life. Well, I shall get motivated and fight for the last war in my life with study. Here I come!
I've been having so so much problems with friend lately. Which I don't know why. Even the reason we fight is kinda ridiculous. I always treasure my friends, as much as I treasure my family. Or perhaps more. Anyway, my pet brother Ah Kean, he just won a short film competition. It's 1st prize. Let me share with you his award winning work- < Table > by Gan Seng Kean
You know, I always dream about having my own cafe in a busy city, but this cafe will be at a corner or maybe an alley with nice coffee and sweets, playing Bossa Nova or Jazz, with cozy seats and nice waitress around. That is something I want to do in the future. I'll make each and every cup of the coffee. Well, those are just dream.
Till then, I hope I'll pass all my subjects and graduate in time. Really have to cross all my fingers and toes or even cross my hair. ><"
Life has been treating me so well that I thank God for giving me such a beautiful life. I've been treated like a princess yesterday. Went to brunch with a few friends, thou the brunch wasn't that nice because I've tried something even better. But the environment and the place was fantastic, especially my company. They are even awesome. Me and Cassey were suppose to go to the office to hand in our time sheet and the same time we were so prepared to be screwed by the manager, it turns out we have missed the manager that he's out. How lucky we are. :D Then head to city to meet the boys and went driving range. It was fun except the part Cow's club is broken. Aww~ Poorthing. Then both of us were so well treated as if we're the princess. We had dinner at their house. We just sat there and wait for dinner, in the mean time there's someone to put on blanket for us, pour our tea, give us treat in case we're hungry and make us dinner. They were so attentive. It's so sweet of them both. They certainly made my day.
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